Sat through the whole movie comfortably. Except for maybe some bad coughs inbetween. Hehehehehehehh. Still recovering from that...

sucks to be sick.

Came back home feeling a sense of emptiness... I'm not sure why... I'm sitting right here in my room, infront of my laptop as I type this entry.. feeling stoned and empty.. (and sick). Then I remembered your promise. Guess you forgotten... Probably it's better that way. Sometimes it's better to do things that you wanna do instead of doing it because you promised.

Daddy needs me to translate the abstract he wrote to English. Cracking my head these few days trying to finish it asap. But things just kept pouring in, making me feel spaced out in my own little upside-down world. Plus the cough really isn't helping me much to concentrate.

Currently am in my all-time LOW state of mind......

And I don't know why or what's wrong with me...

I wish I knew what's going on around me. Maybe that'll make me feel more clear-headed, more alert and more me. Unfortunately, I wouldn't be able to understand it all. Because this is what life is all about. Things happened when you least expected. And frankly speaking, I'm extremely tired of it all.

Wish I can simply throw everything aside, pretend nothing has happened, not giving a damn of this world, heck caring about people's feelings and actions, and do things as and when I pleased - the selfish way. Just like the way you do it. I tried but at the end of the day, I failed... Sometimes I guess I just care too much. Maybe I value things too much that some simply takes it for granted...

I just feel so cold, and miserable, and empty inside - And I don't freaking know why!!!!!

Probably it's good to be alone. Best form of self protection ever. That's one thing I do best in Malaysia, just like last year...

xoxox