Thursday, December 15, 2005
@9:46 PM
Location - Kuala Lumpur, MalaysiaMy second night in KL. Got the dialup internet up and working. My dad got the password wrongly which I kinda guessed it myself in the first place hahahah~ was asking him time and time again that if he's sure he got the password correctly. Time and time again the system prevented me from getting connected. Finally I got frustrated with it and decided to type in the old password.. Think I need not elaborate it any further...Parents~ :P
So the whole day I was at my dad's clinic. Helping him to design up a website for his clinic and also trying to catch up with my friends on MSN. I would say it has been somewhat a... fruitful day? *shrugs* seriously being in the clinic for the whole day, other than helping myself to the unlimited wireless internet network and air-conditioned room, I was not able to get much things done. Well, not the things I wanna do anyway.
As for now, I'm somewhat looking forward to next week and also counting down to christmas. Ironically, this year there wouldn't be much celebration going on at my place as every last few many years. Yuli will be attending one of her colleagues' wedding dinner, Audrey will be spending it with either her family or her bf's and the rest of my friends, hmmm with their family? So yea... Although I am trying to keep my fingers crossed, the hope that I will be able to spend it with someone quite special. 8 more days left. Quite doubtful... I shall just wait and see.
Oh!! Next week is gonna be Greg's birthday. Havent gotten him a present yet. Damn~ Not much time left now. Just have to wait til next week for me to shop around for my things before I go back to Singapore. Don't think I wanna join the mountains of people during this weekend. It's just tooo crazy.
I've given some thoughts on myself. I think I should slap myself silly most of the time. I can't help it. It's just me. Tried to change but it still comes back naturally. Well more like when I didn't realise anything, that stupid self suddenly pops out of nowhere. I don't get it. I just can't seems to get rid of it. why!??!?!?!?!?!?! In case you're wondering what the heck I'm talking about, well, just bitching about the emotional part of me. Someone should just knock me in the head and tell me to wake up. Stop dreaming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
Felicia has yet fallen into the dark, lonely, endlessly black hole of emotions....
Wishing that someone is able to pull her out of that emotional well... To let her breath again...
So help me. It happened too suddenly. I really, seriously did not expect it at all...
*drowning*
WEDNESDAY - 14th Dec -
:: our NICE++ coach interior :: my mummy dearest ::
Just reached Kuala Lumpur few hours ago. Weirdly I'm experiencing this sick feeling right in my guts. There's just too much traveling and packing around happening in my life right now. My body is adjusting it quite well but mentally i'm not feeling right.
One moment I was in Sydney. Next I was on the plane back to Singapore. Before I knew it, I was walking around the streets of Singapore. Just when I slowly gotten familiarise to my homeland, my mum packed me up for Malaysia. In a blink of an eye, I'm in my room of my Malaysia house...
I wouldn't call this 'adventure', or could I?
On the coach earlier this evening, I was thinking to myself "If I really gotten a job which requires me to travel around so crazily and often, can I really take it?"
I think right now I'm mentally drained out. In a dazed actually...
Just as I was about to relax and enjoy myself back in Singapore, meeting up with old friends and going out with special new ones, I was being dragged up to Malaysia.
Hopefully I will only be here for one week. Doubt I will be meeting any friends in Malaysia this time. I am going to just keep it low and chill. Plan to get some presents and stuffs before going back to Singapore next week - fingers crossed.
Was on the phone for few mins with ZhuYi, needing to hear some advise from a guy's point of view. He gave me some good pointers and i totally agreed with what he said. Actually I myself thought of it too but i just couldnt be sure. Hearing it from someone makes it more agreeable sometimes. For now, I will just enjoy the company and try to make it platonic - Not worth risking a new born.
Next week my results will finally be out. These few days since I'm back, I've been scaring the wits out of myself, worrying how my results will be - terribly horribly bad!!!! Did i mention that i even had a nightmare of it?? International Business gotten a 28/100 meanwhile the other 2 subjects 35/100 each. Like oh.. my.. dear.. lord!! To make it worse, back in Sydney i was playing with Devi this jinxed game. It's like if 2 people happened to say the same things coincidentally, they can make a wish and if one said "flip" while the other said "flop", the wish will come true and vice versa. It happened to us twice. First time it was good - this happened before our exams. Second time was bad - this was after our exams. I made the same wish twice. argh!!!!!!!!!! It's killing me~
Oh and just as i thought i'm able to use the internet here in malaysia, there was a problem with the connection... Apparently the username and/or password is invalid in the domain. Meaning what????? I wanted to chat online with my friends!!!!!!! :( :(
With no internet, the only thing i can do now is either listen to my mp3s, watch movies on my lappie or sleep... So i'm gonna wash up now and decide later.
xoxoxo