every beat of my heart

Wednesday, February 16, 2005
@1:09 AM

i hate this kinda feeling...

am packing my stuffs to go back spore tmr...thou i packed since yesterday and theres like really nothing much else other than putting my clothes back to the luaggage n this n that...i still got dat damn empty feeling!!!!! the same feeling everytime i pack to go anywhere!!! i'm feelin so damn pissed right now! and worst still... i'm missing my daddy so much now. even thou hes juz right next door to me. arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm feeling my worst right now. part of me is happy to be going back spore but part of me misses my daddy AND THE DAMN PACKING UP IS NOT HELPING ME AT ALL!!!!!! *taking a deep breath*

ok.... prob my lack of sleep isnt making things any better too.. gonna head to sleep really soon. need to wake up early in the morning tmr to do my final packing and wanna go back sunway to check out the bag i saw earlier. was contemplating on whether shld i get it or not. if its easy to match my clothes n so forth. the usual. hehehh.

cant believe i'll be flying back sydney next week. time flies damn fast. and i hate it. yes. i'm starting to hate everything right now. better not piss me off during these few days. hahahaha. and i'm worried if my bags will be overweight going to sydney. arghh!!!!!

i better not blog liao. its all gonna bout me n my complaints on n on n on n on n on.... pms. hahahah

ciao pplz

Monday, February 14, 2005
@2:05 AM

Happy Valentine's Day

first stop, i would like to wish all lovers out there, a very happy valentine's day. May all singletons find their precious someone & all lovey doveys stays forever inlove n happy.

And as for myself, i wun be celebrating vday with someone special, but with 2 very special friends! ahahha finally be meeting matthew and sheila tmr after their work for dinner. promised dat i'll see them before i leave KL :)

so ,valentine's day isnt juz for lovers. its for everyone out there who has got the love n sincerity in all those people surrounding them. i may not have someone special to spend this day with, but i know i have got all my wonderful friends out there who has been there for me, physically n emotionally. would like to take this moment to thank all of you beautiful people. xoxoxox

And so.. i'm still waiting for You :)

Friday, February 11, 2005
@2:39 AM

Rest & Visits

woke up kinda late today..bout 1pm. was having really intensed dreams and it made me really tired. cldnt remember wat i dreamt about thou. but it sure made my mind so tired out that after i had my lunch, i decided to chill n relax infront of my tv, watching cable movies. finally got my butt out of the sofa at bout 3:45pm, headed to the shower and went out at 5pm with my parents to visit my uncle. everyone was there when we reached his place. after awhile they all came over our place...mingled...dinner..visited another relative's place..came back home at 11plus. tomorrow gonna haf some visitors comin over n den visits to my aunt's place...

took some pics of the sunset i managed to catch on the way back home on the highway few days ago. and also pics of my new haircut. hahahaha not dat great but its alrite.

@2:25 AM

+beautiful sunset+

@2:24 AM

+zoomed+

@2:23 AM

+new haircut+

@2:18 AM

+pretty colors+

Thursday, February 10, 2005
@2:30 AM

Happy Lunar New Year!!

its the time of the year again. Lunar New Year! Tis another season to visit relatives, wear *red*, collect ang paos, eat n eat n eat.. was on a diet last week but guess everything will be going down the drain by the end of next week or so. hahahaha

well today everyone was quite tired out. went to seremban to visit my uncle n relatives at about 3ish in the afternoon and left his place at bout 9ish pm. me, my mum n our maid slept thru most of the journey back home. well i was trying to keep my eyes open to accompany my dad who was driving cos he was feelin tired himself too but... hahaha i did try thou :P not sure wats the plan for tmr gonna be. its either gonna visit more uncles n aunts or they come to visit us instead.

lately been having really horrible tummyaches. cldnt be something i ate wrongly... it was soo bad that i wasnt able to sleep until like some time later. and this morning it came again at bout 7ish am. quite amazing really. i was trying to find the ointment to try n relief my tummyache but cldnt find it anywhere.. den mum told me she din bring it to KL with her. She wanted to go down 7-11 to get one when we got home but i was tooo tired to wanna step out of the hse again. *sigh*

guess i will only be back in spore only around next week. but almost like half of my frens are already back in australia by that time. actually plan to have a get-together before everyone heads back to sydney. oh well~ we can always meet up in sydney again :) i cant wait to go back spore.. but then again, once i'm back, it also means that i'll be returning to sydney very soon. part of me drags the thought of it when i'll be missing all those lovely ppls back in spore and yet part of me cant wait to see my frens in sydney. i'm feeling so torn right now.....

oh n the loveliest thing happened. i managed to find my primary school childhood friend in friendster! hahha yes!! another miracle by the creation of friendster.com *chuckles* he even remembered that we were in the same pre-primary!! how sweet is dat?? :) hes such a charming guy, i know that ever since the time i set eyes on him *wink* hahahahha but seriously, hes a great guy. hope to catch things up with him when i'm back. and also to meet up with my girls n boys before i go back sydney.

subject enrolment - how bad can things be? geez. i've been having difficulties one after another regarding my subject enrolment. good news is dat i got approval to re-enrol in IA. bad news is under the condition that i re-enrol in Spring 2005 !!! damn! i only got like 5 subjects left and this semester is actually my last! so i went to contact the academic adviser regarding this matter n he advised me bout some issues but still the main concern bout my re-enrolment for IA is still being left out. once again i emailed him bout it and am awaiting for his reply. fingers-crossed i'll be able to grant special approval since this is going to be my last semester n all. and next thing is my core subject. well... still waiting for the lady to reply with my endless queries about it.

well..ciao for now people. gotta rest... may u all get as many angpaos with loads of $$ in it as possible!! *wink*

Sunday, February 06, 2005
@4:41 AM

+e girl with a broken smile+

Friday, February 04, 2005
@3:59 AM

+dreaming cupid+

@3:37 AM

come notice me and take my hand

so why are we Strangers when

Our Love is strong, why carry on without me?

i make believe that you are here

its the only way i see clear

what have i done? You seem to move on easy

i may have made it rain, please forgive me

My Weakness caused you pain, and this song is my sorry

at night i pray

that soon your face will fade away

Everytime i try to fly....
I fall without my wings

@3:36 AM

+cupid+

Thursday, February 03, 2005
@3:44 AM

Dinner

followed my dad to one of his formal dinner functions earlier on. Quite interesting. Been there before last year and decided to tag along this year to see if there's any changes. Still the same.. Same people, same food, same atmosphere. Ah yes, its an anuual chinese new year festive ballroom dinner function organised by the China Embassedor at JW Marriot Hotel in KL. My dad told me bout it this afternoon and i was like so unprepared for it. Got nothing formal to wear cos my formal clothes are all back in Spore, so its either jeans n top or else not going. Well so yeah, decided to juz stick with my white top n jeans. Kinda like a smart casual wear so it wasnt that bad. Plus my dad will be going alone, might as well tag along and accompany him :P

Came back around 10 plus. The event started at 7pm and ended at 9pm. Wanted to stop by this makan place to grab a quick bite as my dad din really had much to eat. But it was bout to close when we got there. Got home n made bread for him instead. hahaha anything is better than having instant noodles right? took some pics after the dinner and was playin ard with it for awhile.

Boy, time sure flies by fast... Almost been 1 mth i'm in KL. Gotta meet up with Sheila n Matt before I go back Spore. Shld be heading back on the 3rd week of Feb. after which gotta fix up some stuffs over at the other home and thennn pack my luggages again. *sigh* gonna miss everyone here... but then again cant wait to see wats this yr is gonna be in sydney. i'm being all e-motional again... looking thru the photos for the past few years really brings back alot of wonderful n unforgetable memories. the many new friends i've made n old friends i've kept. the good n bad times. the ups n downs. the unbearable loneliness, sense of insecurity, homesickness n stressful studies. what will my life be after my graduation? will it be the way it is of now? doing nothing, slacking at home n watching time slips by. its scary thinking bout it really. i've got lots of dreams but realising it is another thing. its like the older u get, the harder life is. nobody ever tell us about this. and wat can we do? juz try to embrace it as much as we can... and learn from our mistakes, improve ourselves, etc etc etc... sometimes its juz so freaking tiring. some things are easier said than done. no matter how hard one tries, one juz fails time n time again. wat does it mean then? we're not trying hard enuff? sometimes i juz feel like giving up. giving up on life. so dat all my loved ones wun suffer as much as i did. i've tried my best but sometimes i juz cant take it no more. people says failure is the seed to success. *sigh* maybe i didnt put my all best in it... juz maybe... i should concentrate on my life for once. juz me, myself n i. but i know i cant... there are still people like my frens n loved ones who needs me when they're in need. i guess i treasure them more than anything. i can juz give my time to them when they needed a fren ard to listen, even thou it might i've got a test or exam tmr.. i guess its juz me. i know its bad but i'm trying my best to sort my time out properly... i really am...

well, gonna make a call soon so i shall stop here for now. hahaha thanks for sticking ard after readin so much crap i've wrote. To all my friends out there, if you feel that god is making a fool out of urself or ur life is juz damn shitty, hang in there buddies. stay strong and u'll see dat rainbow with its pot of gold on the other side. remember to keep smiling n be positive. like me. hahahahahahha right!

nitex -xoxox-

@3:15 AM

+edited no1+

@3:12 AM

+edited no2+

@3:11 AM

+Nando's restaurant @ MidValley KL+

@3:10 AM

+cool signboards+

@3:09 AM

+Nando's table order stand+

@3:08 AM

+e new top i bought from P&Co+

@3:06 AM

+a more closer shot of it+

Wednesday, February 02, 2005
@1:01 AM

cure for headaches..

saw a really interesting website being posted on my frenster bulletin board n decided to check it out. from there i found another interesting article which kinda cured my headache. hehehe its really funny~ go check it out when u've free.

heres the website:
http://radar.smh.com.au/archives/2005/02/100_lies_from_t.html

enjoy!!

Tuesday, February 01, 2005
@11:45 PM

HEadache....

damn..been having this terrible headache since last night. Woke up this morning n still having it till now. Its like so bad, i feel like juz banging my head against the wall. hahahah din manage to do anything productive today *sigh* went shopping in the evening n bought a new top, along with a new shirt for my dad. Mum wanted to get a new pants but the service totally sucks at Padini @ the new IKEA building at Damasara Utama. Got this girl call Iris or some shit. Damn~ horrible attitude problem n slacker. Its like as thou she got this kinda mental problem or something. In the end mum juz bought the shirt for dad n decided to go other branches n check out their pants. Seriously bad services juz isnt gonna do the shop any good. Not only u dont get any sales but u got people like me bitching bout it to frens n etc, nobodys gonna patronise ur shop sooner or later lor. Hmmm..come to think of it, no wonder the shop looks so empty everytime i walk past!!!! hahahaha *evil*

well, nothing much been happening lately. Stay home, watch cable, did some household chores, surfing the net and trying to settle my uni subject enrolment. Adrian will be heading back Aussie this weekend. then Pita n Melvin..soon everyone will be back in Aust. leaving juz me and audrey. hahaha hopefully i'll be able to catch the same flight back sydney as her. Den we'll have each other to drive ourselves crazy! or like what audrey said, cry all the way back Sydney. hahahahaha wat a sight thats gonna be man.

I guess this is gonna be quite a boring blog as usual. Chinese New Year is approaching soon. Havent really spring clean the whole house yet. my room is still in a mess. hehehh *sigh* alright..this headache isnt doing me much justice...i think i'll go n do something bout it... blog later~