every beat of my heart

Tuesday, February 27, 2007
@10:42 PM

Late Monday. Early Tuesday.

Late Monday.

started my monday kinda late. went out with mummy in the afternoon to University Bookshop to get my stuff. was planning to meet the gang for dinner after that but it was still early so headed back home first.

dilly-dallied abit while confirming the dinner plan at home, finally decided on Station One at 7pm.

After dinner went over to Asia Cafe for a quick drink and small bites.

Suddenly poor may fell badly at the stairs while we were walking back to the cars.
:(
it happened too fast that i wasn't able to catch hold of her intime...

she was kinda stubborn bout us sending her back home after that bad fall but we did it anyway.

hahahahahaha

it's for your own safety wei babe~

so we accompanied her back then haz dropped me home.

Poor maymay~*

Early Tuesday.

woke up early this morning but still managed to miss my appointment. haikz. hahahahha
so ended up having breakkie with mummy at macdonald's.

in the afternoon went down to 1 Utama with mummy.

Gone to redeem the Jusco Voucher and also manage to get myself a new webcam!!
^-*

only cost me rm$59 and it's like way much better than my old Logitech's.

cos this new webcam is like brandless so kinda skeptical bout it. then the girl told me that if there's any problem with it, i can still go back and exchanged it for the rm$169 Logitech webcam.

but as of now, i'm pretty satisfied with the quality
hehehehehe~

so no need to set back another rm$110 liao!!!
yipeee~

meanwhile, still eyeing on Canon Ixus 60. Went to check out the price earlier and the shop uncle was kind enough to compare with me the other models - Canon Ixus 65 and 850IS.

He gave me a quotation of rm$999 for Ixus 60 + 1gig memory + Leather casing + LCD protector
if i were to get the mini tripod along with it, it'll be rm$1020.

hmmm.. might just forget bout the mini tripod and op for the cheaper price.
then again, i'm still saving up to get it myself. hahahahha
hopefully the price will continue dropppingggggg~

may went to see the doc today.
she's still feeling the pain.
doc can't confirm if the bone's crack. really hope not man.
else there'll be incovenience later on
:(

get well soon babe!!

xoxox

Saturday, February 24, 2007
@5:04 PM

back

from taipei...

was there from tuesday till this morning.. caught the only morning flight back KL at 830am.

which means i woke up at 4am with only 3 hrs of sleep

and has been catching naps inbetween whenever i can

hahahahah

pics up soon!

oh and

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxox

Saturday, February 17, 2007
@2:52 AM

emo has my name

emo has decided to knock on my door once again.

think the last few weeks of busy-ness has left me drained, physically and emotionally. then there's the CNY shopping-cum-last minute mad rush for everything that's available to buy/work with.

being in the office from 10-6ish pm every weekday means having no time to shop after work, which leaves only the weekends.

and you know how much i dislike shopping on weekends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! those jams and mountains of people

i managed to get 3 new tops, 2 pairs of shoes (worn out my fav pair n bought a new exact same one, thus 2 new pairs of shoes! teeheehee~ ), 1 pair of colored lens (Blue but apparently not blue enough!), and another 2 new tops earlier on for my trip to taiwan early next week.

it's spring over there now so gonna be working with layers. the 2 new tops layered with either my old/new clothes.

need to get a carry bag thou.... but taiwan has like soooo many fashionable stuffs. wanna go over there n shop, if time allows. i'm tagging along with dad, so yeah..

kinda sad dat i din manage to get any new accessories.

butbutbutbut, hopefully there'll be aplenty of them - shoes, clothes, accessories and bags, over there~

most importantly, wld love to meet up with my nephews and aunties, uncles there. been donkey years the last i seen them.

still thinking if i shld bring my laptop over or not...

xoxox

Friday, February 16, 2007
@2:33 AM

w.h.y

WHY

why

Why

wHy

whY

WHY?!?!?!?!

...

*cries my heart out*

did i really make a terribly terrible wrong choice??
why is it still haunting me!??!?!

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

i don't know what to do...

i don't know how to let it go..

cos i don't know when it'll creeps back on me out of nowhere..

i don't wanna cry for you time and time again...

fk.

will a rebounce make me forget bout you totally?

i don't know....

FK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't know if i really want to let you go cos i don't know lose those memories..

which is making me feel even more fked up!!!!!!

i feel so lost. so confused.

why am i feeling all so emo all of a sudden!?

can't believe i'm able to link you to something so minor and juz gets all emo bout it..

god i hate myself.

xoxox

Monday, February 12, 2007
@8:12 PM

Blind Love (Pun Fully Intended)

when i read this entry off Potatomus MaximuS's blog, my heart was literally being stabbed and torn into millions of pieces......

it totally portrays how human beings can be so cruel, heartless and judgemental at times....

i copied and pasted it for those who're too lazy to do a simple click on her blog, which i have linked above and on my blog reads.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.

He's always there for her.

She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and she saw everything, including her boyfriend.

Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote her a letter, saying:

"Just take care of my eyes, dear."

How many of you, in current mentality, would do this?

Sigh.

xoxox

Friday, February 09, 2007
@11:48 PM

Sigh...

A student asks a teacher: What is love?

The teacher said: in order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big paddy, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he start to realize that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, this is love... you keep looking for a better one,but when later you realize, you have already miss the person

The student asked: What is marriage then?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage.

xoxox

Thursday, February 08, 2007
@1:22 AM

goodness gracious me

gong xi gong xi dance remix version....

-.-"

think the God of Fortune will be keen on visiting ur place with such music going on?

hmm.. i wonder...

xoxox

Wednesday, February 07, 2007
@10:58 PM

this is what i've been doing

for the past few days...
7-8 hours a day
(minus weekends)

along with the many other days to come

now i know what's the meaning of having mountains and mountains of paperwork to be done...
*faintz*

its like mugging last minute for exams..
except the best part is you're being paid for it!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahaha
^-*

and to keep me cool throughout the day...

now i know why our study director wears suits to work....

SO DAMN BLOODY COLD CAN!!!

omg..

soooooooo cold until my brain cells decided to stop working and concentrating on generating more energy in keeping me warm!!!

seriously, i couldn't think nor concentrate properly cos i'm freezing my butt off when i moved into this office room.

even all 3 of the window panels are being slide open.... but still cold...

the air-conditioning there is definately free.

xoxox

Monday, February 05, 2007
@10:02 PM

talented mr tang

٠●๑۩۞۩๑●٠ need a chinese handwriting recognition software. writes (9:52 PM):

Felicia KL mikey where u says (9:52 PM):
OMG

Felicia KL mikey where u says (9:53 PM):
SO NICE CANNNNN

٠●๑۩۞۩๑●٠ need a chinese handwriting recognition software. writes (9:54 PM):

٠●๑۩۞۩๑●٠ need a chinese handwriting recognition software. writes (9:54 PM):

Felicia KL mikey where u says (9:59 PM):
hahahahha

Felicia KL mikey where u says (9:59 PM):
poor tangtang

٠●๑۩۞۩๑●٠ need a chinese handwriting recognition software. writes (10:00 PM):

...
hehehehehehe

xoxox

Friday, February 02, 2007
@10:03 PM

First Day

Me first day today.... came back home and i was totally zoned out!!

am sooo freaking tired that i can't think straight. feel like just lying on my bed/sofa and simply stone.. but part of me doesn't feel like dying just yet which kinda explains why i'm here blogging away..

-___-"

( Oh shit!!! forgotten to contact may today....... oops )

Spent the whole morning and afternoon till evening looking at those names and grades. I believe no less than 10 days later, my eyesight will definately 'improve' trememdously simply by looking at those sheets after sheets of white paper with black words.

everything seems to appear slightly blurred to me right now.

hahahahahaha

managed to meet up with simon, mat and erm.. (simon what's ur friend's name again? rizal or something? heheh) for lunch together. Else i'll be having lunch myself during breaktime :(

thanks simon!!!! ^^*

so i left the office at 7:15pm and still wasn't able to get the stack of paper done. will be back again next week to finish it off.

it feels good to be temping.

nice to have lunch with friends and simply listening to their lunchtalks *heheheh*

i was so tempted to have coffee with you guys after lunch but i know i need to finish off my stuffs asap.. so mean lah mat.. told me to juz heck bout work. i felt kinda bad that mat has to give up his coffee cos i had to leave and simon needed to drop me off, which ended up everyone not going for coffee in the end :(

sooo sorrryyy

now i'm thinking what shld i do for the rest of the night... need to wake up early tmr morning again to accompany mummy to the immigration.. *yawnz* only had like 4 hours of sleep this morning. as much as i tried to sleep early the night before, i ended up tossing n turning until 4am...

kinda tempted to watch cable.. but too lazy to walk downstairs to the living room... guess i'll just chill infront of my laptop like every other night....ha!

xoxox