Misunderstood




Imagine you're being misunderstood time and time again.
Be it whether it's from your friends, loved ones, family, people whom you actually give a damn and care about.
Time and time again you try to explain yourself for the things you supposedly did wrong.

When honest and sincere questions are being, somehow, twisted into sarcastic and awful remarks.
How is that even possible?
How is something so simple, being turned into some complicated shit!?

It really doesnt pay to be the good guy.
Cos at the end of the day, you'll be marked as the bad ass with a bad attitude.
What gives?

I just dont get it...
It gets me so confused, utterly clueless, totally speechless and brilliantly hurt.

What's the best way to stab someone deep (other than being backstabbed) ?
Being misunderstood.

Seriously, would I even give a damn and care about having to explain myself all the time if you're not someone I actually cherished? Heck No!!!!!!! I wouldnt even bother about what you think of me really. Cos I know, with a clear conscious, what kind of person I am and things that I would and would not do.

If this is how you see me, after knowing me for years, then so be it. Cos obviously, you don't know me at all... So what's the point of explaining if you can't seem to understand me?

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This was what Iris (Kate Winslet) said to Miles (Jack Black) in The Holiday that I found it to be very close to my/our hearts.

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once told me this when I was in one of my lowest point of my life,

"You have a great personality, great heart and it would take a smart person to appreciate that"

I guess it doesn't apply to most people as majorities of them tend to see what is standing infront of them, not who, and having something that is in a "package deal"

(eg, a guy whos tall, handsome, rich, successful, pampers you like theres no tomorrow, etc).

Doesn't the statement "If you like someone, you'll accept the person for who they are and not what they are" give any meanings to anyone anymore?

Everyone demands so much out of everything nowadays that they tend not to look carefully at what is actually surrounding them anymore. Only to realise that they have lost something which is very precious, special and close to them at the very last minute.

Having a wide selection of choices has its own benefits. At the very same time, it confuses you and led you astray as to what you really want and aims to look for at the very beginning.

Then again, that's life isn't it? Making choices that you regret in the end, only able to look back later and kick yourself in the arse for it.

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Finally!!!! MSU judges this year round has great taste and made a brilliantly wonderful choice of selecting this beautiful lady to represent Singapore in this year's Miss Universe 2007 at Mexico City. And her name is none other than Miss Jessica Tan :)

Even before Jessica was being crowned MSU 2007, i knew she's a beauty through and through. Of course I don't know her personally but I do know of her existence for quite sometime. Coincidentally, she's an acquitance of mine's current girlfriend and my friend's ex.

She totally caught my eye while I was browsing through my friend's profile on friendster one day. And only earlier on then i realised she actually joined MSU 2007 and won!!!

I'm so happy for the both of them and finally, proud of our Miss Singapore Universe.

Eitherway, let me present to you our gorgeous MSU 2007 - Miss Jessica Tan!

Here's the interview taken off mediacorptv.com. I've actually copied and pasted it here for your reading pleasure ^^*


Newly-crowned Miss Singapore Universe 2007:
April 23, 2007, 4:01pm

For newly-crowned Miss Singapore Universe Jessica Tan, it was certainly a night to remember. After all, what could possibly beat the surrealism of taking part in a beauty pageant on your birthday and sweeping not one, but two awards? The web team chatted with the poised beauty after the show and basked in her winning glory.

Dressed in a diamond-clad fiery red evening gown, flight stewardess Jessica Tan was literally glowing both on stage and off. Being a hot favourite to win, and probably the one that most beauty pageant pundits have their money on to bring home the $25,000 cash, trophy, and a golden opportunity to represent Singapore in the Miss Universe 2007 pageant to be held in Mexico City on May 29, she did not disappoint at all. Bagging both the Miss Body Beautiful award and the grand title of the night, Jessica impressed the judges not only with her beauty and steady stage presence but also her quick thinking and eloquence.

Waiting to talk to Jessica after the show was a trying experience, as she was surrounded left, right, and centre by journalists waiting for an interview. But when we finally got to speak to the beauty queen, we promptly got a sense of her poise and steady presence. This being the first time she has ever been showered with so much attention and a bombardment of questions, Jessica was apparently more excited than overwhelmed.

"It's quite a nice feeling actually, I feel like a superstar for a day. Since I have it now, enjoy it! Live the moment!" she told us happily.

When quizzed for the millionth time about her feelings after the win, Jessica showed no signs of impatience. Instead, she held on to the bright smile that never left her face for a moment.

"Winning the crown is a very surreal feeling because it is really the best birthday present ever," replied an excited Jessica, who celebrated her birthday on the set for the very first time, amidst 'Happy Birthday' songs from her supporters in the viewing gallery during breaks and from the other contestants after she was crowned.

"I didn't think I was going to win, but people around me told me that I had a very high chance of winning," she told us modestly, saying that she did not want to give herself any "personal pressure" before the big night. "I was already very happy when I was in the top five. After that, I was like 'let fate decide'."

As last year's runner-up (and now MediaCorp artiste) Jade Seah puts it, the beauty pageant experience can be "nerve-wracking, especially in the swimwear round where you are not wearing a lot and you are very cold and shivering". But Jessica was surprisingly calm and collected.

"I told myself (the actual competition) is just another rehearsal and I'll just do what I did for the past two, three weeks of rehearsals, which was to smile, keep my poise, don't get my steps wrong, start and stop at the correct position, and don't block anybody behind me," shared Jessica, with a giggle on the last point.

While the 1.67m good-looker might not have been too surprised by her win, after leading the pack by a mile in the swimwear and evening wear segments and feeling that she "performed really well" in the question-and-answer sessions, she said she was taken aback when she was announced as Miss Body Beautiful.

"When I was younger, I was not the slimmest kid ever," she revealed to this not-so-convinced reporter. "I was actually overweight and I managed to lose 10kg within a year with better exercise and without dieting... I've never thought of myself as the most beautiful body ever, so when I got the title I was really shocked."

Now that she has secured the Miss Singapore Universe 2007 crown, Jessica said she would be spending the next couple of weeks before representing Singapore in the Miss Universe 2007 pageant practising the catwalk, getting a good wardrobe, having good sleep, and basically just taking care of herself and loving her body.





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Half-dead





All I want is a simple, smooth-sailing, happy and loving life.

Why must my life be so complicated?

I’m suffocating. I’m choking. I’m half-empty, not half-full. I’m broken. I’m 5% blinded, 50% jaded, 30% exhausted, 15% lost.

I’m losing my inner peace, my soul, my fairytales, my hopes, my dreams, my me.

I don’t know what plans You have for me. One thing’s for sure is I’m losing it… I’m gasping for air, I’m trying to swim for shore; I’m drowning.

I don’t want to lose my way to the other side. But the dark side keeps pulling me in deeper and deeper each passing day…

I’m shivering. I’m scared. I’m angry. I’m stoned. I’m sad. I'm falling off the edge. I’m already half-dead…

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Driver’s Ed Sunday





Slept at 5 this morning and woke up 2 hours later for my driver’s education lesson which supposedly start at 9am.

Thanks to my picture-memory skill, me and mummy got there just in time. I’ve only been there once with daddy to register for the class few days ago and I managed to remember the road there almost crystal clearly. Mummy was totally clueless with the small roads to the driving centre. *beam*


The class was taught by this Indian teacher, who’s teaching Mathematics in some schools. He tried to make the 5 hours Driver’s Ed lesson as interesting as possible by telling us jokes and funny stories he encountered/ heard of. But I couldn’t help to almost dozed off towards the end of the class. There was a 30 mins break but I decided to just stay in the class since I don’t know anyone.

Tried to keep myself awake by distracting myself with other things until I was finally mentally back in the classroom when I got a missed call from someone. Aaaahahahahahaha ^^*




Anyhow, the class ended at 2pm, booked the test for next Thursday and then lunched with mummy at SS2.




Met up with the darlings after lunch to chill at Leo’s. I wasn’t sure on what to have so I chose to try their signature Green Tea cake. Other than the sponge was quite fluffy and the red beans tasted sweet, it was nothing much to shout about. Then again, it only cost like RM$3.50. Hehehhh. Haz ordered a margarita named “Hard To Resist” (fancy having a margarita during the day, by Haz somemore!!), Maymay had chocolate ice-cream with warm water whilst Simon ordered his 2nd drink there. I had an Ice Jasmine Tea :)

the sweetest thing ever

^^*

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Surprised the birthday boy at Baywatch last night to celebrate his 24th birthday :)

Me and Haz got to Baywatch early to make the necessary arrangments while waiting for the rest to arrive.

The birthday boy thought he and Simon was heading to Baywatch as Simon needed to collect a check from a client. When they reached, birthday boy saw Maymay's car and Simon tried to brush off the boy's suspicion by saying "probably her parents are here for drinks". The boy actually believed and got worried with his "unproper" attire. Awwwww~

Guess the boy must be so relieved to find the 3 of us sitting at this long table instead of Maymay's parents.

hahahahahahahahah

Mat came along slightly later while Jon wasn't able to join us in the end.

We were actually waiting for everyone to arrive before getting the cake out, supposedly to surprise the birthday boy. But the waitress surprised me instead when she suddenly took out the huge cake on a plate with just one tiny candle on it *sweat*

So much for surprising the birthday boy.

:(

Thus the lighting, singing, wishing and cutting of the cake ceremony begun!!

And the DJ played the birthday song while we sang along and the boy made a wish...




Kulen decided to feed all of us with his cake. hahahaha so cute can.

Matt was the first one to go...


Followed by Hazri.....


Kulen couldn't resist teasing Maymay when it was her turn and made a chocolatey mess on her face... Wrong move Kulen.. LOL

Maymay then returned the birthday boy's special favour by making him catch the cherry with his mouth. hahahahahahaha



Lastly it was Simon's turn, Maymay was having some problem with the professional camera - deliberately? Hahahahaha which explains why Mr So has 2 takes of the clip (3 actually but Haz only took 2 hehehh)

Kulen feeding Simon - Take 1.


Kulen feeding Simon - Take 2: Final Take

For being so sweet to feed us his birthday cake, Simon gave the birthday boy a huge slice of cake to finish up there and then. Kakakakakakakaa

After the whole messing around, everyone settled down and chilled for awhile before heading back home.

While we were leaving the place, the DJ thanked Mr Kulen for being there and wished him a happy birthday again. hahahahahah so cute ^^*

Hope you liked the cake kulen!!!

May you have a great 24th, along with many many more to come :)

xoxox