Geegal. Big Echno

Friday night was good. Met up with daniel and jeremy in the city along with Celia. Went down to St Pats bar for 3 rouhds of drinks n there was even live band. But the crowd consist of mainly the mid 20s and above. Celia left early thou cos she was feeling really tired. Had only like 3-4 hours of sleep before, was rushing her assignments n stuffs. So ended up just me Dan n Jeremy. After 3 rounds of drinks, we headed down to Slip Inn to meet Dan's friends, Laura n Co. Really cool people. Apparently they're from Singapore as well! hahha small world. Had only like one drink over at SlipInn. Stayed for few mins and hopped over to Cargo Bar. Ended up spending the whole night over at the lounge area n had another one drink. It was pretty cool. Jeremy talked to me almost through the whole night while Dan was doing his HR skills around Laura and Janet. hahhhah oh! Janet's like this realllyyy hot chick. From Singapore as well. But she's more like born in Singapore but grew up in Australia or something.. The whole group is from UNSW cept the 3 of us.

Reached home at 4am. Daniel was kind enough to walk me back home n sorta groaning on our way. I felt so bad..

Woke up at 12 noon today (Saturday). Watched this cartoon movie on telly till 2pm and Celia finally called me back. We met up at 3pm and walked around QVB n World Square. Had dinner at Makoto. Went back my place for me to change. It was so cool tonight again. Oh i bought this new jacket on friday night and it cost only like $30!! It looks good~ Then we walked back to Celia's place. She's staying with the UTS Students Lodging apartments and her apartment's named Geegal. Its located somewhat in the middle of Chippendale. Kinda isolated but its quiet. Not too bad i would say. Was introduced to her flatmates Mongling, Mills and Koko. There was this party going on Flat 5 (Mongling's unit) and organised by her housemates, some american dudes. Couldn't remember their names. hahhahha One of them actually looks from Ryan from the OC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just thinking about it now makes me sooooo way extremely excited i swear! hahhhahahha

anyway, Francisco popped by and hung out with us for awhile. He then drove us down to Big Echno n went to meet up with his other friend. Sang there for 2 hours and we all headed back home. I'm soo stoned right now. Got the weekly tutorial work due on monday and i havent started working on it. So many things on my mind right now, i swear i'll just die~

It has been a good weekend :) Haven't been enjoying myself this much for soo long. Can't wait to plan for next weekend!!

For now, Sunday shall be my rest day and do my tutorial work!

*nites*

+ Francisco me MongLing n Celia @ Geegal Flat 5. MongLing's apartment + 

+ Celia me @ Big Echo + 

+ Mong Ling, Celia n me + 

A Wedding ; An Anniversary

October. The month my dear cousin Jasmine is going to walk down the aisle and enter into another stage of life. Dressed in the most stunning beautiful white dress, the most beautiful lady she will be that day. Relatives and loved ones giving their blessing, little children carrying bouquets of lovely white flowers. Hand in hand is her handsome man, the one and only who is going to spend the rest of her life with. Through thick and thin, riches and poor. Everyone rejoice for this wonderful moment, once in a lifetime. Parents awaiting for this day, bride and groom the centre of attraction. Love is in the air. Beautiful is the day. Simply unforgettable.

October. The month my favourite Aunt Lay Hong passed. So surreal it was, as though it just happened yesterday. The pain, the grief and the tears. I still thinks of her every now and then, especially during the nights when I simply laid there. Tears flows slowly down my cheeks, flashbacks of memories filled my head. Her laughter, her smile, her beautiful personality and warmth just tears my heart. It has been almost a year now. Things still remains the same but she is no longer there. I feel as though she is still around me but I can't see her. Memories of her, forever in my heart. In that special place where only loved ones stay. I hope that she knew how much I loves her. How special she was and still is to me. No one can replace her in any other way. She is my one and only uniquely special favourite Aunt. Pain fills our hearts. Sorrow overtakes our emotions. She, who has left us, but stays in our hearts forever.

A month of emotional confusion. A month of self contridiction.

I Love You Aunt Lay Hong. I Miss You So Much................. So Much That It Hurts So Bad.

Confessions : Confusions : Convicted

i can't seem to smell the rose no more. Happiness all too short-lived. I can't find myself anymore. I see this person in the mirror but I don't recognise that image looking back at me. No one can imagine the experiences I have been through. Experiences involving the rich and famous, the poor and the average, police, deaths and lots more. I have always been living for other people. My path has already been paved out for me ever since I was born. Decisions mostly made not by me. I have learn to adapt and survive. I have cried my heart out for days and nights when things are just too much to handle. But each time it just creeps back to me silently, inflicting me with more misery and pain. I tried hiding. I tried crying. I even tried not thinking about. No matter what i do. It's always there. Something I can't control. Something horrible yet can't live without. My emotions is driving me everywhere.

I can feel it coming back again. I don't know how to describe it and I don't know how to control it. I can't breathe properly. I feel like giving it up. Feel like just letting it take over my whole mind, body and spirit. I'm just too tired to fight it.

I'm so lost... I need a compass to lead me somewhere safe. I've lost my direction in life. Or was it I never had it in the first place? Why must something which is going on so perfectly, has a flaw? Why, when i think i finally have something going, there must be this huge wall crushing down on me????? Seriously.. I can't take it.. It's just too heavy. I'm getting weaker and weaker.

Sure I managed to get out of it everytime. But only after many days struggling and nights pondering, crying, trying to breathe. Am I self-inflicting myself with such horrible emotions?? I need a cure.. I need someone.. As much as i try to act strong and pretend everything will be fine, it's just too hard. I dont know how to explain the way i'm feeling right now, and all these while. On and off. EMotional Rollercoaster Ride...

I've lost myself. I no longer know who I really am. This is all just getting too ugly for me to take. Even angels die...

I want to see the rainbow, the clouds and the beautiful stars. I want to smell the lovely roses, childen laughing, pure joy and happiness.

If tomorrow is a brand new day, why am I still living in the same frame? If every cloud has a silver lining, why am I still feeling this way? Where is my guardine angel? Where has all the fairytales gone? What am I doing here?

I need some time out......................................... but there's not much time left now.... I'm lost. I'm confused. I'm no longer the person i used to know before. Everything is changing and I can feel it. Happiness is short-lived now while Reality kicks in.

How i wish i can go back to the time when things are so much simpler, so much love, joy, laughter and pureness..................................................................

Life isn't what it used to be no more. Adulthood is neither a pinch of salt, a cup of tea, the birds and bees, Mary Poppins, something nice nor sweet.

Weekends!! Lyson's Den

Un-believeable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just typed out my blog entry and the stupid server went down!!!!!!!!!!!! I was hoping the entry i typed out earlier has been saved (it happened before n thank god that time the blogger system saved it) but NO!!! ........... like i said earlier, U N B E L I E V A B L E ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Don't you just hate it when such shits happens??????? well i do!! *sigh* Guess i'll just have to re-type it again..

this weekend was good. Went over to Lyson's place for Stephanie's birthday. Ironically I have no idea who Steph is... Lyson just said it's Ronald's gf meanwhile Ronald denied it.... Anyway Lyson invited me and Celia over for the dinner. First up we had steamboat!! Eugene was the head chef. hahaha Next was games then birthday cake and games, games and more games!! We spent nearly half the night cracking our head thinking up games to play throughout the whole night n wee hours of the morning. Yup! We 'ton' the whole night away. Came back home at 6ish this mroning. Let's see... we played poker, bluff, the silly silent game G taught me, daidee, etc etc. Here was the whole highlight of the whole night, we drunk ourselves high with water~ Due to some health consciuous and reasons, we all think its better to drink water since it does so much good to our body. Drinking water is the new high people!!!!!!!!! Like our mummies always say, DRINK MORE WATER AHHHHH!!!!!!!! -_-"

But it was fun still!! :)) Colin n co. did that over in brisbane. Cldn't remember what his reasons was thou (i think they ran out of alcohol, it was too late and no shops was open then.hahaha) At the end of the night, everyone was fighting for the toilet~ Well we were more 'geng' and of much more proper upbringing, we just waited patiently for one another to use the toilet. We believe in solving all things the proper way, no violence! okok..this is crap.

I saw snowy!!!! He's such a darlinggg~ Havent seen him for soooo long. Even totally forgotten about him. Celia fell in love with him. hahaha can't blame her. He's just a pretty boy~

After the games, we gone over to Maccas for breakkie. Billy was so kind to drove us back home. Billy is such a gentleman *hahahahahahha* and he remember to help me burn a CD :)) But sadly this isn't the songs that i wanted ahh.. *blush* i'm so troublesome *Blush*

Steph and her friends went back home around midnight. So left only Eugene Ronald Lyson Billy Celia n me. So needed a break lately and i guess it's a nice one for me. Been a long time since I stayed up the whole night till next morning with friends. Althou i know its not good for health but i love doing it. I love being with friends and just the whole us together feeling. Its cool.

My landlord help me rented 2 DVDs from Civic Video. He said its cheaper to rent tonight so yeah.. He got me Taxi and White Chicks. Probably will only watch it on Tuesday. Tomorrow is my long day. Tutorial in the afternoon. break. Lecture in the evening till night.

Tooks loads of pics from last night but unfortunately my camera settings isn't that good. blury ahh.. sianxzz.. gonna start working on my tutorial homework soon.. due tomorrow, every morning~ International Business... sucks ahh~ i'm so not good with political issues. Don't really keep up with them seriously. Guess like it or not, i have to work on it really hard. Can't afford to fail this semester.

Lyson lent me this VCD called One Nite in Mongkok (Wang Jiao Hei Yei) and the ending's really saddddd.. Daniel died :( Don't really like Cecilia's Cheung acting in this movie.. especially when shes like speaking fluenent Mandarin and Bad Cantonese. It's sooo weird :S

Right.. need to start my tutorial now. its already 8:30pm!!!! damnnnn....

+ Steamboat dinner & our happy chef Eugene + 

+ Ronald Eugene(with snowy) Billy Celia me Don Stephanie + 

+ Mahjong sessionsss + 

+ me snuggling up close with Snowy + 

+ Celia trying to kiss Snowy, hoping he'll turn into Prince Charming? + 

+ Snowy the darling + 

+ Lyson the DJ + 

+ Billy our dealer. the start of our many games thru the night + 

+ Black Forest birthday cake + 

+ Birthday girl Stephanie + 

+ the hongkies +

+ enjoying the birthday cake +

+ Celia me Steph(birthdaygirl) Ronald Eugene Don Lyson & the birthday cake!!  

+ me n cutesy Celia foolin ard + 

+ one head taller : Lyson Celia + 

+ Lyson acting silly on his bed + 

+ Ronald Eugene Billy me Snowy Celia & Stephanie + 

+ Eugene Celia playing PS2 in Lyson's room with Snowy trying to grad some shuteye + 

+ pretty candle ornament in Lyson's room + 

Thursday - Late Night Shopping

well not surprisingly, i skipped my classes for today again. i slept at 3ish this morning and woke up at 10am. i was sooo tired and i saw my clock, knew i wouldn't be able to make it in time for my tutorial class, i flopped back to bed and afew mins later woke up again, thinking i still got time to go for my 1pm lecture. as i slowly do my things, i realised that i havent watch Hitch DVD. the landlord has to return the DVD by tonight. darn~ so i took my shower n prepared my lunch while watching the movie. actually watched it before in the cinema few months back but i really love the whole storyline and told my landlord to rent it for me as well.

somehow, as i slowly ate my lunch and watching the dvd, i realised dat i'm late!!!!! hahahahahaha okok.. i didnt really anticipated on going for my 1pm lecture either. namely becos i took this subject before and seriously, i know i can study at home myself. i have to! so yeah... i skipped my classes for today.

met up with audrey at 4ish at Market City. walked around Paddys n she bought an AUS jumper for her skip trip. then took a bus down to Pitt Street Mall, hung around there for coffee at Queen Victoria Building and shopped for more stuffs since it's late night shopping. as usual, i didnt manage to find whatever i'm looking for while audrey bought like 2 stuff which amazingly costs her not more than $30. hahahah

after which met up with Den n Chek for dinner at SuperBowl. Celia joined us too. Dinner was alright. not too bad. all of us was soo hungry and ate quite a bit. hehehehh havent had a decent proper dinner for quite sometime now. it was lovely :)

now i'm back home, sitting on my comfy bed and typing out this silly blog. seriously, is my blog very interesting? hahahaha i find it pretty dull, plain, nothing much at all interesting really.

meanwhile, back to reality. i got to seriously start revising my work. Midterms gonna be like in less than 1 mth's time. Audrey & Den is going to NZ with his mates for ski. Saturday prob going over to Lyson's place for dinner. other than that.. nothing much for me this week i reckon. have to start studying ahhhh.. plus need to do research for my International Business homework due monday. damn.... i'm so like stressed up over IB. i dont know what i'm doing and not really sure whats going on.. its all about politics and debates and theres loads of stuffs to read up on. have to really put in all my efforts for this subject.. keep telling myself that but i'm just too tired lately and i dont know why. not blaming on my fatigue for not studying mind u. i'm really tired and i really dont know why. prob i shldnt sleep so late nowadays.... come to think of it, lately i've been sleeping late so maybe thats why i'm so tired..................................................................

oh!! apparently everyone seems to tell me that he looks like this korean actor. hahahaha well heard afew people saying that to me. especially my korean friend Jae and Budi's korean friends.. very interesting. theres a slight resemblance though when Jae sent me that Actor's photos. oh well~ :)))


ok. have to start on my IB homework now.

+ FRESCO. the fantabulous cafe in QVB with yummilicious pasteries + 

+ our sinful yummies at QVB! strawberry tart, turkish delight, chocolate cheesecake & mocha fap + 

+ audrey with her fav mocha fap +