Been feeling so awfully emo lately - not sure if its due to pms or something else. And it's pissing the hell out of me. It's keeping me up till late at night...

I'm blessed to have you by my side all the time whenever things start messing up in my life lately. Although sometimes I really wish that you're a drive away from me and not so far away...

You got me through the night, listening and advising me with all my emotional craps. You were there to answer my calls when I needed someone to talk to and made me laugh with your super cold and utterly lame jokes...

Plus I'm lucky to have the rest of my darlings around back home, waiting for me. No matter what happens, I know I'll have all my wonderful beautiful boys and girls to lean upon, shake me up when i'm lost and simply having them just being there...

Don't know why I keep getting into all these kind of sh*t everywhere I go. It's like irregardless of where you start afresh, there'll definately be those kind of bad vibes around to ruin your once beautiful innocence life - creating some stains for that moment, for their personal pleasure and advantage.

Then again, we're all human beings. We make mistakes. And at the end of the day, we have to pay the price for it.

I'm just so filled with disappointments in everything now. All those words, those times, those moments are simply nothing.

So naive. Too soft-hearted. Zero trust.

Really hope that this will be gone soon. I need to get out to clear my head and wash away the pain - Everything.

So glad I'm going home around next week or so - A great timeout needed for me.

I know this will be over in a jiffy - Just needed a sign.

xoxox