Few nights ago, back in Singapore, I had the (one of many) weirdest dream.

I dreamt that I was at this really nice bungalow. Apparently I'm quite close with one of the sons of that family and they were having a small afternoon pre-wedding garden/tea party. Later I found out it was actually the pre-wedding party of that son I knew.

He is a tall charming young chap, with neat short hair and wears a pair of silver-framed glasses. He would, what most girls call it, a true blue gentleman. His body language and the things he said came true from the heart and with no ill-intentions (well dat was what my dream portrayed him as...)

Anyway, so I was congratulating him for being the lucky guy to marry a beautiful wife. At the same time, I was feeling disappointed, sad and somewhat jealous. He said something about its going to be my turn soon enough and I just smirked at what he said, replying that I'm going to be left on the shelf more like it.

There was a lot of people there and the place looked cosy yet magnificent in a special way. Apparently I stayed over at their place. The next day when I woke up, everyone was out. So I was walking around the place, looking for him. I walked down a flight of stairs and bumped into him. His fiancée was preparing the floral decorations of the car right outside the porch.

So we stood at the stairs and started a small conversation. He told me that he felt I still have some feelings over him and he actually told his fiancee about it. I was speechless and shocked at the same time. Just at that moment, his fiancee turned back and looked at us. I smiled and waved at her but she greeted me back with a cold hard stare, while smiling at him warmly after. I couldn't help but feel so terribly out of the picture all of a sudden.

He turned back to me, smiled and said, "if things don’t work out between me and her after 5 years, we can still get together. :) "

I looked at him and replied, "5 years is too long. I cant wait for you forever... ... "

After that sentence, I started crying very badly... Like my whole world just shattered and everything has turned dark and gloomy.

Then I woke up, with tears in my eyes still flowing down like waterfall.

:(

xoxox