Happy Easter Day!!







Woke up late morning today, chilled at home for awhile before getting ready to go out.





Did some camwhoring while waiting for mummy inside the car.
hehehehe
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Since me and mummy haven't had our lunch yet, decided to just simply takeaway our lunch from Subang before heading to dad's for work. But I ended up not eatting mine cos I wasn't that hungry yet. It's still in the fridge right now. hahahahha

Simon came to the office around 4pm to pitch my dad the website deal.
Impressed with his work - as usual :)

hopefully dad will take up his deal then it'll be way cool!! That means dad's dodgy boring website will finally have a fresh nice look and at the same time, helping a friend to get a new project to work with! (among the many others he's doing right now of cos)

Dad finished work early today as he got some prior appointment to handle. So mummy dropped me in Subang to meet up with Haz!
:)


Initially was to meet up for coffee with him but I got there late (had to clean up and everything at work, along with the usual horrid traffic jam). We ended up playing a game of pool, dinner at Salmon Steak, home after.

It was a fun night.
:*)


Seriously my pool skills is deteriorating like nothing. Pool skills used to be quite average when I started picking it up back in secondary school before. But I've stop playing since I came back from Australia, it's very very embarressingly poor.
Disappointed with myself..
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I don't know why but it's hard for me to find something really really extremely fun that I can enjoy doing. Maybe I should continue picking up my still-life drawing. The last time I did one was back in Secondary school days. I find myself different from the old me I used to know.

Alan said I should be myself. Problem is I don't know myself anymore. People been questioning me with things that even I can't answer.

I find it hard to be confident in things nowadays - having to fall down numerous times just makes you feel all jaded, confused and unsure about some things at times. So what if I can answer some questions confidently? It doesn't mean that for sure I'll get a 100% fail-proof results. I can be confident in things but I seldom show it out. It's just draining each time. Even more so when it fails.


These 2-3 nights I've been having some weird dreams. Been dreaming about everyone!! Each dream I'll see about 5-6 friends in it. Not a nightmare definately. It was sweet but just plain weird when you see sooo many of your friends all jumbled up in dreams?????

Something's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just too bothered down with those problems until I feel that I can't breath anymore. I need something to destress myself but I don't know how. When I talk about it, it gets even more complicating and confusing because not everyone understands my situation and point of view. Some will probably brush it off saying things like such problems are easy, stop thinking about it and go to sleep, it's your life so live the way you want, etc etc and etc...

I'm so bothered that I don't even know how to start describing when people ask!!!!! Either that or I'm just too tired to even want to talk about it... I would love to share it with someone but I know it's not going to solve anything.

Friends can only give you advises and lend you a listening ear. Friends can only do so much. The rest is up to you.

I really need to escape. These are too much for me to handle.

Still remember when JC was telling me what attracted him to Lynn (hahaha no offence lynn!! a sudden thought :P). He said cos she's carefree, fun, bubbly and easygoing. I'm all that too. Just that all these shyt kind of changed me into someone i'm not......

I want to find back the old me... Please give me back the old me - even if it's just for few days. I miss being the once forever carefree, cheerful, bubbly and innocent me...

PMS has strike again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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xoxox