the music box



that day you bought me this special music box
i knew it will always be our special song
i even got one for you to remember me of
before you left

for some unexplained reasons
you stayed on my mind for the longest time
even till now

i seriously don't know why but
to have this feeling that
you're the one and only who's meant for me

you stood by me when times was low
you never fail to pick me up when i fell
you made me laugh when i was down

you listened to my every words and actually remembered
you were my pillar when i was semi-drunk
you took care of me through the nights and days
you cried with me on our last night there

although you bid me farewell a year plus ago
memories of us still remain deep within
although now you share your life with someone new
i still cant forget the things we went through

is it really so hard to find someone
who's as wonderful as you
or am i still holding onto something
that's all in the past now

what should i do to let you go completely?
i really tried, i really did.
but its so hard accepting others in
when i feel dat nobody can reach deep within me
the same way you did...

sometimes i felt like picking up the phone
to dial that once familiar number
but that stronger part of me held back

cos i understand that
you have someone new in your life now
and she's able to make you believe something
so much so that you're now 'in a relationship'

i nearly could have given up everything
inorder to spend my life with you
but you told me it's a silly thought
that i should carry on with what i'm doing
so i listened to you
with that, i've lost myself...

you were once my strength of hope
you gave me love, care
and endless encourgement
you showered me with special attention

there was nothing i could have wished for
other than the times we spent together
on the phone and face-to-face.

you know something?
the moment i lost you
my world really has collasped...

i came to realise just how badly i needed you
i would have gone through the distance with you
but you told me not to be silly
that i should carry on with what i'm doing

can you feel the pain i'm bearing now?
can you feel the sense of sorrow i'm going through?

how i wish i can turn back time
to be the silly girl you once told me not to

cos given the choice of being the me now and the me back then
i definately choose to be the me i was when i'm with you

how i wish that tomorrow when i wake up
everything will be back to where it was before
everything now will then be a nightmare
cos i know that when i'm awake
you'll be by my side
and everything will be alright

but all i can do now is
to cry myself to sleep
for tomorrow we'll always be distances apart

what's left of you now are
the memories, the teddybear,
the pictures, the keychain and
the music box

xoxox