Wednesday, November 08, 2006
@10:02 PM
.naiveness.
Last week this time, I was in the coach, getting on with my normal journey in life. This time today, I’m on the coach again, trying to get back to reality.
How many of us actually can remember the times you walked through each and every year of our lives?
Well, I actually have quite vivid –almost no recollection- of what happened during 1998-1999. that year had been very rushed, lost, changed, and a turning point of my life from thereafter.
Eitherway, I survived. And still am trying to do it everyday.
This week has been quite rewarding for me. Catching up with my girls, learning new things from them. I’ll be joining their battlefield soon. It feels good to have them beside me after going through all things in life. Slowly I realized that the common things that bonded me and my girls are the shit we shared, the traveling and the growing up.
I don’t know where I’ll be landing my two feet on. But knowing that they will always be there to guide me, tackle life with me and not being all fake, sarcastic and childish about things. It’s a genuine friendship that will sail through all storms, mists and rainbows.
Like what people says, you take the color of your crowd. Sometimes u just have to let go of things that doesn’t quite adds up. –no pun intended-
On a more lighter note, I see beautiful lightings once more!!!!!!!!!!!
Its scary when suddenly u step into the malls and starts seeing pine trees, shining silver hanging ornaments, the jolly red guy statues being displayed everywhere.
U know that its that time of the year again.
Then u starts to feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Cos u know that u have been a good boy/girl and that the jolly old red man will be knocking on ur door pretty soon! Hahahah
This year, I guess I’ll be snuggled up in my living room. Listening to Christmas carols, with lighted candles and air-condition set on high.
Few months ago, I thought I could be spending this Christmas differently. Thinking that maybe god decides to finally be kind to me and lets me spend it with someone nice, romantically. I guess my time just isn’t here yet….
Sometimes it’s good to not be so easily excited and anticipating for plans that are pretty much fiction made at the end of the day. Because before you know it, as that anticipated time draws near, everything just burst into tiny droplets.
So much for counting down to it…. I guess that’s just the way it is.
Don’t put hopes on anything and anybody. Cos at the end of the day, shit happens. People turning their backs on you… turning back on their promises… turning the tables and much anticipated plans… it’s like waiting for it to rain on a drought season…I should have known… but I just keep on falling and falling into such roller-coaster rides.
But don’t worry. I’ll survive. I did it before so I know that I can do it again.
Although, I have to thank You for giving me hopes and then letting me fall deep, back into the darkness of life.
I shall try not to make the same mistakes again. Hopes and Trust must be eliminated from my dictionary.
xoxox
