Thursday, September 21, 2006
@11:23 PM
Trip back Singapore
Warning: Long Entry
So here i am, in KL again.. was back in Singapore for like 10 days or so as granny wasn't feeling that well after a diagnosed from the doctor's thus popped back home to spend time with her. But she's fine and all that so it's good.
meanwhile, managed to catch up and meet up with some friends inbetween :)
here are the bits and pieces of my saved blog entries i did up over the week....
:: 9th Sept - Back Home ::
the traffic jam in the highway back Singapore from KL is terrible.. reminder, never to take coach at night during WEEKENDS!!
almost evveryone is asleep on board. decided to juz switch on my lappie and type some rubbish out. least i wouldnt have a blank entry on my blog during my absence back to Singapore. hehehhehe ( not like anyone care really.. *ahem* )
well least the traffic is moving right now as compared to earlier. and now its only like 810pm lor... 630pm coach and estimated arrival shld be around 1130pm. 5 hrs. doubt its going to happen now... i'll be happy to reach spore before 1230am!!! so much for having a memorable saturday night out. would u rather be stuck in a traffic jam back Singapore or just stay ur lazy butt at home in KL? hahahaha
seriously this is going to be a very lame entry.
let me see what are my plans back spore for the next 10 days or so.
i'll be staying home cos that's the main reason for me to head back Singapore for these 10 days. Gonna spend more time with granny and grandpa.
Might be meeting Ben and even Le Quan. Le Quan is in Sydney now, enjoying his one week stay there. so jealous lor.
Made some unconfirmed plans with my few fav peeps too. havent told some others dat i'm coming back cos i dun wanna go out too often. but then again i hope to be able to catch some movies n fun while i can cos i wun be able to none of such once i'm in KL again. *Sigh*
YEAH NO MORE TRAFFIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the coach driver is like speeding now................................
*speechless*
i'm so bored..
*yawn*
:: 10th Sept - Empuzzlement ::
many a times we often look upon our Peers as our role models. Could be your eldest cousin who has financially established himself a very high position in a MNC board of company with a very loving and wonderful family. Or your 2nd cousin who has gotten alot of educational merit awards. From their high-flying achievements, we hope to live in their shadows and along side producing such great results.
then again there are also times when Lady Luck just isnt on your side. No matter how hard you tried, you just can't bring yourself high up there. Maybe you be pretty near to your goals but just cant possibly be close enough to touch it.
with all these peer pressures around, it can definately make you into something you wouldn't dream of achieving while at the same time, it can also break you into becoming something immoral and ruthless.
Would you give up ur principles and morality to achieve something you want so badly?
Or would you choose to stick to what your parents taught you since young thus losing something you so often dreamt about?
How 'far' is 'too far' in terms of your actions and principles?
Many of us wants both sides of the world. But how many of us can actually maintain such an equal balance?
In order to earn heaps of money, a husband chose to work 24/7 a day, 7 days a week. In turn neglecting the wife and kids. Or forsaking a strong bond of a potentially wonderful friendship for something which you couldn't handle and get committed to. Or throwing away your body and self-respect from others to get attention and popularities of the opposite sex..
the list just goes on.
there is risk in everything you do.
the question is, are you willing to take such a risk? is it actually worth it?
sure at the end of the day, you can fame, fortune and company. But i'm sure nothing is worth the love and support from your family and friends, the humanity and trust from close friends, and most importantly, your self-respect from others.
fame and fortune can get you to places. Nothing can buy over self-respect, morality, and trust.
what's done is done.
the damage has a scar.
the scar has a name.
that name stays.
and so it's another brand new day.
with a brand new chapter
and a fading name.
Your actions will always be accounted for.
Temptations will always be there.
Even if He has forgiven you
Loses will still be made.
A sudden thought...
If someone (who has gone mental for some reasons), commits a murder every single day.
at the end of the day, dat murderer confesses his sins to God in His holy chamber.
so then he'll be forgiven by God cos God is forgiving to all his children.
what happens next?
like he still goes to heaven even though he kills an innocent human being on a daily basis???
what makes of these innocent lives that he has taken then?
:: 11st Sept ::
i thought i have gotten over it. but now as i lay on my bed, all those things juz kept flowing back into my head...
i shouldnt have met you earlier. even though it was like for merely less than an hour (i think), i just cant help but feel a sense of closeness towards you.. some part of me feels that i was able to relate myself to you...
but, feelings are just pointless useless emotions.. there's no point hanging onto it you would say. will things be different if i'm a different person on the outside? will it still matters to you?
seriously i dont know why i'm feeling this way. i feel so helpless and empty... as i looked into you eyes, i see this little kid. a little snoopy. hahahaha. you looked fine with your specs on too.
but to you, i guess we're just good friends.. merely something platonic you said. nothing romantic.. nothing emotional you said..
i wanted to tell you how much i miss you.. but i held back. cos i know eitherway, it wouldnt matter to you. plus it's juz plain silly
to you, she's a better person than i am.
to you, she's the kinda girl you wld wanna hold onto?
my nose is running. my mind is screaming. my heart is lost..
i'm happy to be back home.
but i'm heartbroken trying to face what i've left behind here...
i'm juz a broken person.. waiting to be mended in time to come..
if you ask me why?
this is what i wld say...
" when i'm with you, i feel like a little girl. everything smells fresh and full of colors. each day is filled with life and adventures. you give me life, hope and desire. you nag becos i know you care. you're one silly lazy bugger but i guess dats what makes u unique and like an old man (hahahaha). you make me feel all brand new once more... "
that is what i wld say....
and much more perhaps...
that is.... IF you asked..
but now, things has changed... for loving you isnt my job. it's hers.
:: 12th Sept - Matchmaker ::
A sudden thought came across my mind earlier while i was trying to figure out whether to head down to Orchard tomorrow myself to exchange something i got today...
anyway, i was thinking that maybe i should be a match-maker. since like i'm so good at introducing my friends to my friends and then my guy friends always ask if i've got any female friends to introduce to them and so forth.
heck i even helped some friends to mend their relationships and also developed new ones!!!
(yeah i'm like such a generous person hey)
the thing is, i can't have any feelings with my guy 'clients' since i'll be introducing them to my female friends.
Hmmm.. should i even charge for such services??? kekekeke~ maybe i'll do it free for awhile and if business starts to kick in good, then i'll start charging!!!
hey wait a min... like how many matchmaking agencies are there in Singapore again??
think SDU, speed-dating and this somewhat new lunch-dating thingy...
darn!!
man and reese witherspoon made it looked sooo professionally fun and freshly spontanous in one of her fantastic drama series where she's a divorce lawyer in her dad's law firm and at night, she's a hot matchmaker babe!
*giggles*
:: 13th Sept - Sleepless Nights ::
what do you do when
the sky has turned dark
night has fallen in
you realised dat at the end of the day
you're once again, alone in the room
music on ur stero
the light turned off and candles lited the room
you wish that he was beside you
holding you close
breathing in the same air
sharing the very same moments
sleepless nights
endless thoughts
haunting memories
unforgotten promises
doubtful future
pointless dreams
living in a shadow
created by thee
hopeless wishes
daunting music
foggy nights
starless sky
i cant explain why my tears start falling when slow music starts playing...
i dont understand why nighttime always makes me feel so blue...
i wonder why do i feel this emptiness inside me...
:: 14th Sept - Changi Airport ::
didnt do much today
except for meeting up with JJ and we were pretty much bored coming up with ideas on where to go. So in the end he decided to drive down to Changi Airport, just to have coffee.
hahahahahahha.
Man. I miss going to the airport late at night. it felt nice to be there again. it was pretty isolated other than the few nightshifts workers and also those IMF-related officers and army personals. i saw some hunky guys decked with guns and smart uniforms. *grinz* *chuckles*
:: 16th Sept - Family Dinner + En-Lounge ::Everyone came over for dinner tonight. and i mean
everyone!!Had such a nice time being able to see all my wonderful relatives again. Although the day was spent madly just preparing and cooking the dinner. The whole preparation started in the early noon - after lunch and it went on until evening time when my big uncle n family came and took over the kitchen. Everyone started pouring in at about 7pm. Only managed to grab my shower at around 8pm and i was just in time for dinner when i was all made-up!!
Then everyone mingled about... chitchatted... this time, i managed to snap some pics with my adorable nieces!!! :)


kids nowadays are really quite a handful. they never fail to ask u the darnest questions!! -__-"
Around 1030pm, everyone started to leave. Only then i continued my night down at En Lounge with Pat & Co. i had strawberry champagne and it was good!!!!!!!!! that's gonna be my fav drink next time i'm there. *giggles*
Ended the night away with coffee at MacCafe West Coast then headed home and started sulking bout my trip up KL again..............................
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