how much is having Trust in someone, too much?

how can trusting someone whom you thought can have no part in inflicting you with any pain, be causing even more pain than being hurt by someone else?

is Trust really such a hard thing to find in all of us?

Human beings are borned selfish - there's noone perfect in this imperfect ugly world. It's the survive of the fittest they said.

how true.

lately i've been experiencing this overwhelming sense of lost and rollercoaster ride of issues.

i've indirectly inflicted unwanted pain unto myself and at the same time, created a unexpected new form of hurtful self-inflicting relationship... it's hard to explain when all you did is liking this someone so very much, when both of u shared so much in common.. as the bubble was forming so beautifully, something came and burst it into microminis water droplets and vapour..

this whole week has definately been too much for me to handle.. i guess it's good that i'll be going up to KL next week..

i need to sort out the emotions.. feelings.. and a whole lot of issues in my head.. to think things through..

just how much can Trust be worth in everyone of us... that is a question i thought i knew but now it remains as a mystery to me, as deep as the ocean's floor... as dark as the sea......

xoxox