Red and Green Apple." I'm no longer your last chat of the day
u used to say its nice chatting with me
then you found someone new
said its the whole package
which attracted you
gee thanks man
cos now i know,
just how much u knew me
and how much u're willingly more u wanted to know..."
plan to just lay low for this whole week. will be heading up to KL again on the 25th July - not sure if i felt happy or sad bout leaving but boy, do i feel numbed.
i cant wait to start working. then i'll be so caught up with the whole stacks of stress and all that i wouldn't give a shit damn about anything.
it will be just work work work, rush home, shower eat, sleep.
it's funny how some people can give you reasonings and stuff when it kinda contridicts themselves at the same time.. guess it must be a very tiring thing to do as you need to think up of some excuses and then proof how much it relates to the issue. then make some justification to it.
but what happens when people ponders back about what you said? slowly they'll realised that it was all just lame bullshit.
what makes u think u can justify what u said when you didnt do equally much "followup" and "researching" to both subjects?
let's make an example:
1 red apple and 1 green apple.
Personally you love red apples all along. so when a red apple appears, instinctively you will take a bite and slowly savour the sweetness and crisp taste of it. chewing it slowly as the jucies slowly tingles down your throat, talking bigger and more bites each time. So you conclude that the red apple is sweet, crisp, fresh and totally irresistable. (which also coincidentally is your favourite fruit!!)then one day, someone gave you a green apple. you hold it in ur hands, take a closer look at it and mentally you got this red-alert siren going in your head which tells u that it wouldnt be the same as the red apple (becos its green in color). sure you wouldnt give taking a small bite out of it and see how it'll taste but at the same time you're thinking," hmmmm.. not now.. i'm neither hungry nor thristy.. maybe later.." so you left the green apple there and as days turns into months, the green apple is still sitting there, waiting for you to take a bite. but you decided to let it wait longer... and longer... and longer.........now there's 2 scenarios which might happen to this green apple. either someone would notice that green apple and takes it away from you, or this green apple will slowly dry and rot away..in the end that you never gotten to really taste this green apple. when someone asked you how that green apple tasted, you could lie saying that "oh nothing still beats the red apple man!" or just shrugs and walk away..how can you simply conclude that the green apple doesnt taste as great as the red one when in actual fact, you havent taken the time to try it? so.. what gives?you're just being apple-ist. don't expect that green apple to re-appear cos you have already lost it in the first place. Sure you could be the most expert apple taster that all apples wanted you to taste them and everything. but unless if you're the World's most expert apple taster, you have lost that particular green apple.
