Sometimes there's so many things that i wanna say but when it comes to really penning it down, the mood just isn't right or i've forgotten what those things were..

Right now i'm still recovering. I guess it's gonna take awhile for things to set in and back to normal.

Friends has been asking about my return, my results and also about my life. Some sees my life as being really cool or so forth. Frankly speaking, it has been really tiring for me the moment everything started. It physically and emotionally draining for me.

I wouldn't say it's not cool or anything. But life isn't very much stable for me in many ways.

For the past 3 years, i've been traveling back and forth 3 countries - Singapore, Malaysia and Australia. Whenever i'm back in Singapore for the summer, i'll have to leave for Malaysia with just 2 weeks stay in Singapore. Then it'll be another 1 month before i can return back to Singapore, after which another 2 more weeks and i'll be off for Australia again....

Ever since the moment i left Singapore for my studies after my O levels, my life has been on a rocky road - literally. As much as i would love to go travel overseas for holidays, i would really love to travel around Singapore. To take in as much as i can, all those that i have lost during my absense here.

All these traveling is making my heart weak. It's hard for me to find anything stable to even begin with.... When i've made myself comfortable and familiar for a moment, it's time to go somewhere else.

I know that my life will never be stable, even once i finally start working. For i will have to travel back and forth Singapore Malaysia to visit my dad.

Ironically, I would like to find a new place - to start a new chapter of my life. When I first stepped into Australia, i thought i'll be able to build a new life that's full of love and laughters. No tears, no heartaches and heart breaks. But i was wrong. Everything begun and ended in every imaginable ways you can think of. Of course i did have alot of love and laughters on the way :) I made the bestest friends, the fun-est groups and a truck loads of wonderful beautiful memories with all these brilliant people.

As much as i would like to continue my chapter in Australia, mummy called me home.

Then there's the future overseas working opportunities I would love to have. I hope that there'll be possibilities and good opportunities for me to go on business trips around the World. Just me, my work and hopefully a trusty camera by my side - to capture all those vibrant colors of love and life everywhere i go.

Lately been having gastric pain, felt really bad... :( Hasn't had it for awhile now and suddenly it's back. Probably been eating too much, too little, too early/late. My mood is destroying my eatting habits.... everything seems to be in a mess. Sometimes i'm in such a trance that i don't know what i'm doing or forgotten who said that and when.

Sighh...

Hope it'll go away soon - My gastric pain and my worst self

xoxox