Pretty Rainbow


It rained yesterday while i was out with mummy, quite heavily too. Gone to IKEA to get a frame and some nic-nacs here n there. When we left the carpark, went to Maccas drive thru and got our drinks, I saw this!!!!!!



Pretty Pretty Rainbowie~*

lol

Been awhile since i've last saw a rainbow - maybe months ago? Anyway it kinda perked me up after :) it's always nice to see rainbows, especially really bold colored and huge ones ^^*


Forgotten to mention the other day that i went for this quickie mini makeover while getting my skincare supplies at Jusco 1U. *hhehehe* Quite fun but didn't really fancy the way the lady did my hair and kinda awkward with the photographer.... -___-" (i was shy?)

Still, it turned out pretty O.K.

I took it with my camera cos i juz only got the hardcopy of it. Lazy to use the scanner... hehehhh

Alright. It's time for Lunch.

xoxox

Sometimes there's so many things that i wanna say but when it comes to really penning it down, the mood just isn't right or i've forgotten what those things were..

Right now i'm still recovering. I guess it's gonna take awhile for things to set in and back to normal.

Friends has been asking about my return, my results and also about my life. Some sees my life as being really cool or so forth. Frankly speaking, it has been really tiring for me the moment everything started. It physically and emotionally draining for me.

I wouldn't say it's not cool or anything. But life isn't very much stable for me in many ways.

For the past 3 years, i've been traveling back and forth 3 countries - Singapore, Malaysia and Australia. Whenever i'm back in Singapore for the summer, i'll have to leave for Malaysia with just 2 weeks stay in Singapore. Then it'll be another 1 month before i can return back to Singapore, after which another 2 more weeks and i'll be off for Australia again....

Ever since the moment i left Singapore for my studies after my O levels, my life has been on a rocky road - literally. As much as i would love to go travel overseas for holidays, i would really love to travel around Singapore. To take in as much as i can, all those that i have lost during my absense here.

All these traveling is making my heart weak. It's hard for me to find anything stable to even begin with.... When i've made myself comfortable and familiar for a moment, it's time to go somewhere else.

I know that my life will never be stable, even once i finally start working. For i will have to travel back and forth Singapore Malaysia to visit my dad.

Ironically, I would like to find a new place - to start a new chapter of my life. When I first stepped into Australia, i thought i'll be able to build a new life that's full of love and laughters. No tears, no heartaches and heart breaks. But i was wrong. Everything begun and ended in every imaginable ways you can think of. Of course i did have alot of love and laughters on the way :) I made the bestest friends, the fun-est groups and a truck loads of wonderful beautiful memories with all these brilliant people.

As much as i would like to continue my chapter in Australia, mummy called me home.

Then there's the future overseas working opportunities I would love to have. I hope that there'll be possibilities and good opportunities for me to go on business trips around the World. Just me, my work and hopefully a trusty camera by my side - to capture all those vibrant colors of love and life everywhere i go.

Lately been having gastric pain, felt really bad... :( Hasn't had it for awhile now and suddenly it's back. Probably been eating too much, too little, too early/late. My mood is destroying my eatting habits.... everything seems to be in a mess. Sometimes i'm in such a trance that i don't know what i'm doing or forgotten who said that and when.

Sighh...

Hope it'll go away soon - My gastric pain and my worst self

xoxox

unto this poem/lyrics while surfing around earlier.

think its kinda sad but somehow rather explicit the way it portrays the society now.

well in some ways or the other...

eitherway, juz wanna share this with everyone of u guys out there.

It was a rainy night when she came into sight
Standing by the road, no umbrella, no coat
So I pulled up along side and I offered her a ride
sHe accepted with a smile so we drove for a while
I didn't ask her name, this lonely girl in the rain
Fate tell me it's right, is this love at first sight
Please don't make it wrong, just stay for the night
All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will you want me too
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got lovin' arms to hold on to

So we found this hotel, it was a place I knew well
We made magic that night. Oh, she did everything right
sHe brought the man out of me, so many times, easily
And in the morning when she woke all I left her was a note
I told her I am the flower you are the seed
We walked in the garden we planted a tree
Don't try to find me, please don't you dare

Just live in my memory, you'll always be there

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew

We made love
Love like strangers
All night long
We made love

Then it happened one day, we came round the same way
You can imagine her surprise when She saw her own eyes
I said please, please understand
I'm in love with another woman
And what she couldn't give me
Was the one little thing that you can

One night of love was all we knew

xoxox

Nice Nice...

dear philip sent me the pics we took at Kuishin-bo with his professional camera.

i loooovvveeee it!!

thankies philip~


with his magnificant prof photographer skills and my awesome brilliant sense of creativity

i give you ... ...

THIS!!!



*hehehehehhehe* def one of my favourites!!



And so..... currently i'm overseas again... literally.. in KL now..

was trying to study on the coach but ended up feeling all sick and tired.. *lol*

i really really hope i'll go thru man.... :(

pls pray for me.........

i need a miracle~ *


xoxox

how would you say when u're numbed from all emotions suddenly?

yesterday night was good.

Met up with Matthew whos here in spore on business and Patrick at Mohammad Sultan. Chilled at En Lounge while waiting for Pat's friends to come. Later found out that his group was all primary school mates! lol how cute, especially so when Pat is like older than me and stuff. kekkek

So gotten to know 2 more new friends yesterday - LiJuan and Jaslyn.

From En Lounge we continued to night over to Thumper. Got in for free even~ kekekek all thanks to Pat.

Didn't drink that much but a fair bit to numb me and left me feeling quite high. It was good.

Had one glass of white at En Lounge, then the rest at Thumper.. 1 vodka lime soda, half pint HoeGarden and 1 Heineken.

we all left at around 3ish as Pat got a page from the Navy to head back camp. poor fella~

reached home around 4 and was still semi-high. hahhahhah

chatted with Leon over the phone.. Pat called while on his way to camp on the cab...

as for today, gonna juz be staying home and study.

not meeting anyone... need to focus... plus Lynn's attached now, with JC..

xoxox

Pics Feeds~*


Kuishin-bo

met up with Lynn and Philip yesterday late morning for buffet lunch at Kuishin-bo, the Authentic Japanese Restaurant at Suntec City. Before i left the house, Elmer texted me saying dat he'll only be free to meet me that day before he flies for America. So he came along with us! ^^*

picked him up at his place over Merryn Road. it's nice but kinda too deep in.. somewhat similiar to my old place at Shelford Road.. needs to walk in quite abit from the busstop along the main road. not very ideal for if my grandparents are to travel back n forth. but definately a nice quiet place :)





anyway, lunch was fantastic. the company was great.

visited Toy R Us after lunch and had afew laughs in there.
remembered eons ago i went with my then-bf. back in sec sch days. one of the best memories i ever had with him there :)







i lovelovelovelovelovelovelove this dog!!!!







there was a photo exhibition going on as well - in promotion of Uniquely Singapore tourism board.

the world's fastest strongest indian *chuckles*




after which left Suntec and Phil dropped us off at Orchard Border's.

bid our goodbyes with Elmer with a warm hug... *teared*

then left Lynn for her classes at around 6ish pm..

chilled at TCC cineleisure alone while waiting for frens to come and sang at Kbox till 2ish in the morning.

Gary managed to join us last minute and boy, do i miss his singing!!!!! :)
was glad he was able to make it in such a short notice.

Got hold of Angus and he was complaining that we should have gone over to Cuppage cos he got free rooms there and stuff. but it was too late lahhhhh... already paid and set our butt there for awhile liao. there's always next time anyways. hehehhe

mental note to self: bring a cardigan or sweater next time to cineleisure kbox. it was FREEZING lor!! -__-"


kinda sad that Elmer's leaving... my bestest wishes for his studies. I know he can make it!! :)



Altivo

this place rocks!!! it's the closest thing to where me and my babes hang out in Sydney!!!
i lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove it!!!!!

all thanks to this nice fella who brought me there.. i'm touched *

reason becos i havent been around much since i came back (everyone's busy or something else) and this fella's nice enough to drive all the way to Mount Faber, especially since he was the one who suggested it. hehhehhe

definately be bringing all my loved ones up there - once i got a car that is...






xoxox

how much is having Trust in someone, too much?

how can trusting someone whom you thought can have no part in inflicting you with any pain, be causing even more pain than being hurt by someone else?

is Trust really such a hard thing to find in all of us?

Human beings are borned selfish - there's noone perfect in this imperfect ugly world. It's the survive of the fittest they said.

how true.

lately i've been experiencing this overwhelming sense of lost and rollercoaster ride of issues.

i've indirectly inflicted unwanted pain unto myself and at the same time, created a unexpected new form of hurtful self-inflicting relationship... it's hard to explain when all you did is liking this someone so very much, when both of u shared so much in common.. as the bubble was forming so beautifully, something came and burst it into microminis water droplets and vapour..

this whole week has definately been too much for me to handle.. i guess it's good that i'll be going up to KL next week..

i need to sort out the emotions.. feelings.. and a whole lot of issues in my head.. to think things through..

just how much can Trust be worth in everyone of us... that is a question i thought i knew but now it remains as a mystery to me, as deep as the ocean's floor... as dark as the sea......

xoxox

Red and Green Apple.


" I'm no longer your last chat of the day
u used to say its nice chatting with me
then you found someone new
said its the whole package
which attracted you
gee thanks man
cos now i know,
just how much u knew me
and how much u're willingly more u wanted to know..."


plan to just lay low for this whole week. will be heading up to KL again on the 25th July - not sure if i felt happy or sad bout leaving but boy, do i feel numbed.

i cant wait to start working. then i'll be so caught up with the whole stacks of stress and all that i wouldn't give a shit damn about anything.

it will be just work work work, rush home, shower eat, sleep.

it's funny how some people can give you reasonings and stuff when it kinda contridicts themselves at the same time.. guess it must be a very tiring thing to do as you need to think up of some excuses and then proof how much it relates to the issue. then make some justification to it.

but what happens when people ponders back about what you said? slowly they'll realised that it was all just lame bullshit.

what makes u think u can justify what u said when you didnt do equally much "followup" and "researching" to both subjects?

let's make an example: 1 red apple and 1 green apple.

Personally you love red apples all along. so when a red apple appears, instinctively you will take a bite and slowly savour the sweetness and crisp taste of it. chewing it slowly as the jucies slowly tingles down your throat, talking bigger and more bites each time. So you conclude that the red apple is sweet, crisp, fresh and totally irresistable. (which also coincidentally is your favourite fruit!!)

then one day, someone gave you a green apple. you hold it in ur hands, take a closer look at it and mentally you got this red-alert siren going in your head which tells u that it wouldnt be the same as the red apple (becos its green in color). sure you wouldnt give taking a small bite out of it and see how it'll taste but at the same time you're thinking," hmmmm.. not now.. i'm neither hungry nor thristy.. maybe later.." so you left the green apple there and as days turns into months, the green apple is still sitting there, waiting for you to take a bite. but you decided to let it wait longer... and longer... and longer.........

now there's 2 scenarios which might happen to this green apple. either someone would notice that green apple and takes it away from you, or this green apple will slowly dry and rot away..

in the end that you never gotten to really taste this green apple. when someone asked you how that green apple tasted, you could lie saying that "oh nothing still beats the red apple man!" or just shrugs and walk away..

how can you simply conclude that the green apple doesnt taste as great as the red one when in actual fact, you havent taken the time to try it?

so.. what gives?

you're just being apple-ist.

don't expect that green apple to re-appear cos you have already lost it in the first place.

Sure you could be the most expert apple taster that all apples wanted you to taste them and everything. but unless if you're the World's most expert apple taster, you have lost that particular green apple.

Matthew just sent me a msg on frenster informing of his short trip to Singapore this weekend. so i'll most probably be meeting up with him and bring him around or soemthing :) perhaps will ask him along if there's another meet-up this coming weekend with my sydney mates again.

Chris finally met up with me yesterday evening and it has been fun spending time together. we went for coffee at TCC, followed by pool at meridien hotel for like 1-2 hrs i think... dinner at ichiban-sushi and then karaoke at kbox paradiz!!!!!

it was definately a great time in my book. the second fun-est thing i've done since i came back so far ^^*

THANKS CHRIS!!!!!
for taking my mind off some issues and making me feel happy and contented bout life for that whole time together. Have fun in thailand~!


hope everyone out there had fun last weekend :)

time to get serious soon.


xoxox

(just hope that i wouldn't be downed by that matter again.. hurts when it comes crawling back into my head... pls go away.. cos i dont need you anymore.. you're nothing to me.. go ()#**)&@# away... i know u will...)

A quick update of what happened for the past few days back in Singapore...

Ministry Of Sound

- with Lynn, JC, Budi and bumped into Wayne...

- Audrey, David, Daniel and Eugene..

xoxox

I'm Wowed Out!!!

check them out~*


Ancesion 2003




Ancesion 2004





Ancesion 2005





xoxox

Yellow Fever

this is the funniest thing ever~ hahahahaha

all thanks to my mate DJ,
for sending it over to me ^^*






sooooo....

why does asian guys doesnt have any white girls and why does asian girls like white guys again???


*hahahahhahahahaha*

enjoy the 15mins short clip ppl~ hope u'll like it :)



-Home is calling out my name in T-minus 26 hours time. Yipeeeee!!!!-


xoxox

what happens when...

there is

no more kaka,

no more ronaldo,

no more ronaldino,

no more beckham,

no more rooney,

no more owen???

"no more footie for me"

...

*in tears*

xoxox

unbelieveable!!

i juz wrote a nice nice entry, was just about to wanna publish it then my laptop shut down itself!!!!

()#($*)&*&^@)&)(#@

*speechless*

.....