Lately been feeling depressed again... happens every month.. more so when i'm alone n stuff. this sucks..

Lately also been thinking back bout those fun times in sydney with all my friends.. thinking back about many things too.. younger years... less worry days.. *sigh*

SY said its up to us whether or not we wanna be happy. True... but sometimes it just can't be help when u're being blocked by those unavoidable / unpredictable happenings right? its not like we want bad terrible things to happen to us either...

i wish this to go away.. i wish i can go back to the happier me then.. how can i describe this feeling i have deep inside me? *sigh*

if someone asked me given a chance, what would i change if i can turn back time? in a way, i wouldnt want anything to change.. if its not for all these experiences i had, i wouldnt be the me today. but then, one thing i wld change if to tell myself to work harder... that's about it..

if its not for these heartaches and heartbreaks, it wld not teach me to be stronger and how to handle given such situations.. so.. theres always the good and bad side to things.

what i truely wish now is...

i wish to....

xoxox