Been back for 5 days now. Managed to meet up with certain friends and loved ones since.

Met up with chris and lynn on thursday for dinner, after doing some shopping and catching a movie in the morning with audrey. was waiting for lynn to finish her work so me and chris walked all the way from Orchard to Suntec City.. along the way we talked about the popular statement "why women can't read maps and why men doesn't ask for directions". dont even bother asking how it started. Finally decided to have dinner at Fish & Co. and ended the night with drinks at Millinium Walk.

Lately been wanting to have drinking session but nothing happened... Its hard to plan for such thing when everyone's busy and parents around. hahahahha its nice to be high enough to forget whatz been going on so far in your life.. just being happy, playing and laughing the night away..

Just had my lil bday get-together with my darlings on friday night. Elmer couldn't make it due to his army exercise. Hopefully we can meet up again before he flies to UK for his further studies. Think hes doing some really interesting courses... Remember him mentioning about.. Tissue? anyway, Mr Elmer Ker's ambition is to be a scientist so I wish him all the best :) He definately has that sort of knowledge and capability in him. RZ, charles, philip and lynn came. Didn't take a picture though.. lazy~ hehehehe

Been doing some catching up with Lynn. Glad she's slowly moving on with her life right now, especially since yours truly been introducing some new friends into her life. hehehehehehe still planning on making that one getaway trip together..... got a feeling its gonna take some time to actually be confirmed.

So i finally had some karaoke session!!! Went to K-Box with RZ in the morning for their K-Lunch hour (11am-2pm). Not tooooo bad but still prefer the karaoke system over in Sydney. heheheh Lynn didnt wanna join us for karaoke so we met up after and did some window shopping. In the evening, all 3 of us went down to CityHall to meet William and manage to catch Big Mama House 2.. Not that great.. has some funny scenes but.. i dont know.. i juz feel not myself lately..

Relatives coming for dinner tonight and everyone is preparing the food now... Gonna help them in awhile after i finish this. Something's wrong with me and I dont know how to explain it. Just like that Deviana told me the other day - you feel like crying but you don't know why. Just feel so terribly inside and you cant explain the reason. Perhaps I do but i just don't know...

Friends ask me whats wrong and i just don't know what or how to tell them. its either too long to start and too little time to end.

it just hurts knowing that you have that feeling inside but theres nothing you can do about it but to just keep quiet.

i just want to get high and forget about all these shit inside me... i need to escape...

Hurts so bad

xoxox