I feel so stressed and worried now that I can't breath properly. I feel like going back home to see my friends which helps to relieve part of what i'm feeling right now. But I know it's not possible... Mummy said I can only go back home after I complete the paper. I don't wish to tell her the outcome of the other as I myself feel very much stressed already, and having her to give me constant nagging and stressing me to get in touch with whoever I can get hold of isn't going to help me calm my nerves. Plus I need to try and study for the paper from now on. No more slacking around at home...

Thing is I really don't know what to do if the other can't get through. This is so crazy, it's driving me nuts!!!!!

I don't know how am I going to sleep early tonight... I don't know how am I going to concentrate on studyin for that paper when I'm worrying about the other right now.

I'm so stressed, I am eatting anything!!!!!! Thank goodness I've got fruits at home or I'll just drown myself with Cokes, Shandy, CNY Goodies and all those what-nots we got at home for visitors.

I know I should try and study if I couldn't sleep tonight... But part of me feels tired while part of me feels so sickly worried.. :'(

Meanwhile I know I shouldn't be thinking about this during such a period, should I give Keisuke chocolates for VDay? hahahaha I'm thinking of sending Keisuke, Kosuke, Yuto the guys chocolates for VDay.

Japanese has this culture which is soooooo interesting. VDay is only meant for GIRLS to GIVE GUYS chocolates. ONLY chocolates and nothing else. Not flowers. Not candlelight dinner. And most sexistly important, only the GIRLS can give the guys. Not the other way round. Thennnnn few days after VDay (think they called it the Whie or White Day), the guys will then give the girls something back in return. Of course the guys will only give something back IF they like the girl. For example, Girl gives Boy chocolates for VDay but Boy doesn't like her in any way so Boy doesn't give Girl back anything on Whie Day. Personally I think it's kinda cruel. Like why does the girl has to make the first move?? Why can't the guys give girls chocolates on VDay and then we girls will give them boys something back on Whie Day, if we feel like it.

So sexist right!??!?!?! *sigh* Guess it's just how their culture has been so many years. At least it's showing some improvements right now :) Go Japanese Girls!!!! Gambatte!!!! wahahhaha~

Tomorrow morning I'm gonna wake up early and call up Uni to explain to them the whole situation. Hopefully they'll be more lenient on me, given my circumstances...

Pls pls pls pls pls God.. Let everything goes smoothly for me this time.. I really need my break and finish everything right then, right now..

xoxox