When I see him,

He makes my heart skip a beat.

He makes me blushed, with

lil butterflies fluttering in my tummy.

When I see him,

I became lost for words.

I so wanted to talk to him,

but just too shy everytime.

When I see him,

I wonder what's on his mind.

Wishing he wld look my way,

And maybe ask me
"so how have you been doing?"

When I see him,

only probably once a year.

The meeting was short and brief

and only happens when they're near.

When I see him,

he's always so simply dressed.

The whole image of the simple him

amuses me in the most interesting way.

When I see him,

he just feels so special to me.

The way i feel can never be told.

For he is someone different

Someone who's there

But can never be hold.

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Met up with my cousin from Taiwan. He'll be staying in KL for 1 mth for treatment with my dad. Sometimes I really don't understand my dad and his side of the family.. I really hope I wouldn't inherit any of their awful habits...

He's suffering from some illness. One of which is depression. He said sometimes he thought bout killing himself. Then I thought for awhile. Reminded me of this someone I know. He's always worrying about everything and never about himself.

Was out with him and mummy the whole day today. Had dinner together with my dad earlier and drove him back home after.

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I feel like crying... I think I am just feeling so stressed up and I don't know how to express such feelings out.. Everything is all bottled inside of me. I want to go out and just have my own time..

To laugh again.. To be crazy once more.. To be Me..

I miss everyone.. I am so stressed with everything!! Studies.. Family.. Future..

What would you do if you are stuck inbetween? Everytime? What would you do if you are being fed with negative thoughts and every complaints but have nowhere to put them away?

I really don't know what to do.. I feel so so so so lost.. I feel like giving it up once more... One last breathe.. One last smile...

Sooner or later, I am going to break... Please take me away.. Least everyone will have more peace and less stress...

xoxox