every beat of my heart

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
@10:45 PM

Headache...

Lately i've got so many things on my mind that sooner or later, my brain seriously couldnt take it anymore.. So many things that my head throbs like mad quite often. Sometimes I really feel like I need a shelter, a block of confidant, an other half to help me get thru life... At least just to be there whenever I need someone to listen and hear me out. I guess growing up alone doesn't really help. I'm not totally dependent nor am I totally independent... I'm just a girl who needs someone to protect and care for like everyone else..

Sometimes I really wish life isn't this hard. It just gets harder as years gone by. It gets more complex, more "polluted", more tough and especially more lonely...

A has been bugging me lately about this particular issue. I understand A's kindness and nags but I guess it's not an easy task for me although I myself really would like to achieve it. I know it'll definately change my life for the better and that A said sounds really comforting and encouraging.. A mentioned about me being a nice person and that people should treat me back with the same kindness and whatsoevers. Don't let those people push me around and think I'm a nobody. It's only right to make the equation balance out.

I definately want people to treat me with the same kindness as I do unto them... I don't blame them if they misused my kindness and took advantage of it. I guess I am just too nice sometimes. I take things easily. I am patient with most people. I am just ... chilled.. most times other than when i'm having my PMS! hahahahha

well... I'll try my best A... Hopefully I'll be able to get it over and done with soon.. and perhaps I will see a change.. for the better :)

~

Anyway spent the whole afternoon and evening at MidValley today shopping with my mum, Jenny and her friend.

::interiors of MidValley Shopping Mall ::

:: photo sessions with my darlings *lol* ::

I think we were there from like around 3pm until we left the place at abt 8pm. Best was I only manage to buy 1 top at MNG.... -_-" the thing about me is I'm pretty picky about what I buy so... I don't usually go back home with heaps of bags and stuff unless it's my favourite shop or things like that.. Anyway the top at MNG only costs me RM$79 which I think is not too bad. It's like one of the newer stock so yeah :P

:: cupid top from MNG ::

At least Jenny bought like heaps of stuffs for herself and her boyfriend David. awwwwww~ I miss buying things for my boyfriend... I actually love to shower my other half with presents and nice surprises but usually I am the one who's doing all the givings while the other half was the takers. hahaha oh well.. I like having people happy... Maybe it's one of my faults too. *sigh* watever :)

I was looking ard the shoe shops but none of the shoes caught my eye... I wanna find back the pair of heels I saw at Bugis Americaya but can't seems to see it anywhere... :( Walking around the whole shopping mall was killing my poor feet. hahahha Doesn't help much when at the same time I was getting tired and sianz.. Especially I only manage to buy 1 top...

Then Jenny wanted to go in JUSCO to check out their bags. In the end she got herself a pack of compact powder from Chanel. Think it costs like RM$130 or something.. not very expensive right? Anyway while she was checking out the Chanel counter, I cldn't take it anymore and had to sit down to rest my poor feet. hheheh

:: the Jusco cosmetics department with beautiful people ads ::

:: just taking it easy... for e moment ::

By the end of the day, me and my mum began to feel hungry while Jenny and her friend had late lunch before so they were quite full. So we figured by the time we got out of the city it'll be too late to go anywhere for dinner, thus headed to JUSCO foodcourt and got ourselves some sushi instead.

:: our dinner ::

Drove Jen n her friend back to the hotel and we headed back home.

It was like jam all the way back. Jam jam jam... I think it's all these traffic jams that's giving me this terrible headache lately!! :(

Don't think I'll be seeing Jenny tomorrow.. Need to study for my supplementary papers.. But then again she'll be leaving on friday liao.. hmmmmmm.. will see how lah~

Meanwhile just gotta study as much as I can!! Wish me luck!

xoxox