every beat of my heart

Tuesday, January 24, 2006
@11:37 PM

Eat & Shop & Eat Tuesday

Finally dragged my big fat ass out today. hahahah. Went shopping with mummy at 1 Utama. Walked until my feet hurts!! (Still couldn't find that perfect pair of shoes...sad..)

Had our lunch at Fish & Co. Yummy!! Haven't had that for ages!! I love their Seafood Platter but always can't finish it on my own. Damn full lor. Seafood Platter for One needs 2 to finish so mummy helped me out after she finished her Fish & Chips. hahahha

:: Fish & Co's famous Seafood Platter for One *yummm* ::

After lunch went to check out all the shops at the new wing. There's heaps of branded stuffs at the 1st level (i think..). Your usual brands like Guess, AX, Ralph Lauren, French Connection, etc etc.. Basically it's not my level.. yet! hehehe so we went up a level and started our shopping galore. Actually there's not much stuffs to buy.. -_-" I only got this top from this big shop which cost me RM$80... My mummy has this theory now. In Malaysia, whatever tops which is transparent, light, flipsy (aka Shaffon) will costs heaps. Which is sooo true! A simple shaffon top will min cost u RM$80 (like mine....). Then it'll goes as high as RM$500 for just one top. I say it's good to market shaffon tops in Malaysia. Definately get alot of profit from it.

Anyhow, after the much feet-aching shopping hours, we finally sat down for a mocha frappacino and a blueberry chessecake! At Starbucks... hehehe well, the cheesecake tasted alrite. its like RM$8.50 for that cheesecake. It doesn't have much of a strong cheese taste to it.. It's more like those kinda jello cheesecake then the other original full bodied cheesecakes. But it has a nice sweet crunchy biscuit at the bottom. Not tooooo bad.

:: blueberry cheesecake with mocha frappacino ::

After our nice lil pitstop, we continued to walk ard for awhile and then headed down SS2 for dinner - chicken riceee!!!!! :P

Oh and I saw this Mazda RX8 at SS2 on our way back. Audrey mentioned before about if she's gonna get a RX8, she's gonna get a white one. I cldn't really picture how it'll look like seriously but when I saw one earlier, boy!! It's cute!!!!!! Don't you think so?? :)

:: the stunning white Mazda RX8 ::

Tomorrow gonna go to the hair salon to get my hair done!! SOooo excited!!!! hehehe* Decided on going to Kimarie at SS2. The lady at the reception was really nice althou she had a hard time talking to us with her losing voice. And she took the time to explain about this and that. The price isn't that bad either, as compared to the other salons I checked out earlier today. So yEah.

Gonna hit my books now. *sigh*

xoxox

Monday, January 23, 2006
@2:13 AM

Late Night Short Memories

So the story begins...

Yesterday before I dozed into my wonderful dreamland, I was thinking back about the good times I had in Sydney. Then suddenly Francisco pops up on my mind. Francisco Chuong. One of the few guys I known ever since I went to Sydney. That makes this our 4th anniversary friendship. hhahha We used to chat over the ICQ every night and then we met up the first time at Oportos opposite Market City. He was from USYD while me UTS. Our friendship started off being kinda weird.. Only during my last yr in Sydney (2005) did we really hang out quite often. I would call him out during my little get-together with my UTSmates at the Uni Lodging.

Once he was renting this carpark space at my older apartment. One early morning around 4am, my mobile rang. I got up and answered...

"Hey Felicia! Open the door!"

"..Huh?? Wh..at?? who is this?"

"Its me Francis!! Open the door"

" Huh? Open what door?"

"I'm outside your front door.. open it!"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahhahahha It was so darn funny.

That silly boy couldn't sleep so decided to drive to the city at 3am and bunk at my room until the next morning before work. hahahahha Since my flatmates was already asleep and it wouldn't be nice to them if he sleeps in the living area, so he slept with me that morning. Really silly boy... Said couldn't sleep but ended up snoring away at my place.

It was good memories.. *sigh*

Told him bout it this afternoon over MSN. And he was telling me about the other part of that incident instead... -_-" That guy simply not romantic at all lor!!!!!!! *double sigh*

But he was telling me that if everything goes well, he'll pop over to Singapore straight.

Keisuke was also telling me that he'll come to Singapore within the 1-2 yrs time. He said he got a friend who's gonna be working in Singapore.. Then what about me?!?!?! These ppl....

Dunno if Kosuke Aso will be coming to Singapore for visit. Zensho also another fella. He said he prefer going to Bali than Singapore.... Oh well~

Bedtime :)

xoxox

Sunday, January 22, 2006
@9:11 PM

Technical Problems

Having some technical problems with my blog... Everything seems to show except my blog entry template. Probably uploaded too many pics liao. But then dont have alot leh.... As compared to others :P

Oh well... It actually happened before, several times to be exact. But after few days of entry without any pics, the blog entry template will pop right back up! heheheheh

Things I did today - stayed home. watched telly. did abit of gardening. watched telly again. had chicken maryland mummy brought from supermarket. watched telly. bit of gardening. had bread for dinner. dad came back home. watched telly. and now i'm back in my room blogging.

Quite a fruitful day huh?

I'M BORED STIFF LOR!!!!!!! :(

Gonna study later.. when everyone's asleep. then I can have some quiet peacefulness to study.

Hopefully my blog entry template will be back up soon... Feeling kinda sleepy now.. Dunno why..

Been thinking about that someone on and off lately.. I don't know what kinda feelings it is.. It's so confusing!!!!!!!! Makes me wanna cry.. Doesn't help much when I'm here and can't do anything about it... Am I lovesick or something else?

i think i'm going mad....

help?

anyone?

*sobx*

xoxox

Saturday, January 21, 2006
@11:54 PM

Peaceful Saturday

I'm proud to say that I'm almost done redoing up my room. Other than getting the necessary new items and paint, I've tidied up everything now.

Woken up this morning by a phone call... The phone was actually suppose to be in my room but my mum took it out and I had to drag myself up to the family room to answer it as my mum was in the shower........ It was my dad's friend who dropped by for a visit and she was already outside our front gate but nobody heard her ringing the doorbell. Still in a very tranced-state-of-mind, I 'floated' down the stairs and opened the frontgate for her and greeted her in a very terrrible i've-juz-woken-up face.

She was like 'Oh! Did you just wake up???" I smiled sheepishly at her and nodded.
hahahhahhah

Since my mum was still in the shower and getting ready, I entertained her for awhile until my mum came down. Asked her bout her sister, her work, life, the usuals. And she looked really good!! Gained abit of weight with a new hairdo! She looks fantastic actually. Like a barbie doll :) Told her that too and she was laughing away. I like the new her :)

My dearest mummy finally came downstairs and I excused myself. Went back to my room and plopped onto my bed...

zZZzzZZzZZzZZzZZZzZZz

And so I spent my whole day cleaning up, watching abit of telly and went out just to buy my dinner. It was all good quiet time spent at home. With my mummy of cos...

Earlier was chatting with Guillaume on MSN. It has been awhile since we last chatted. Good fella. Always felt like breathing in new fresh air chatting with him. Not sure why though. We talked about our life latest happenings and I commented about the figure issue. Well, I guess different people has got different taste in almost everything. Or maybe it's just french guys always have a way with their words! hahhahahahh A good lad. Can't wait to meet up with him and have a few drinks together.

:: Guillaume ::

Then, I was asking uncle Evan agony about doing my hair... Still can't decide if I should rebond my hair or not. Asked Andria darling and she said up to me.. -_-"

I'll probably pop over to this hair salon at my dad's clinic building to check it out.. Heard from mummy that it's pretty good. Well apparently she heard that some TV3 people always frequent there or something...

I need a change... It's time for a change...

Brand New Year
Brand New Me :)

xoxox

@12:03 AM

Old Pictures!

Spent almost the whole day tidying up my room. Well more like redecorating and moving everything around. Gotten to throw away some of the old and useless stuffs while my other part of the room still looks abit too messy. hehehehhe~ Once I've figure where to put my other table and finish picking up my rubbish, everything should be done. Hope to get everything organised by this week.

Still need to get some items at Ikea and also some fresh new color for my room. Currently going for the pink-violet look :")

Oh!! While I was ramaging through my old stuffs, I came across this stack of yellow Kodak bags and dug out few other paperbags. All of them contained some pretty old pictures and those not-that-ones. I was so surprised when I saw a small stack of photos I took with my sec sch girls!! It was taken in 1999. I looked so different lor!!! Much slimmer for sure! hahahahha Will scan them out probably tmr and will load it up for anyone whos interested to have a look :P

Gosh.. Everyone looked so different in the pics.. It was this renuion get-together thingy I remember.. at Corina's apartment or something? Not too sure on that part. But anyhow, most of the pictures r kinda dark.. Not sure why also.. No flashlight maybe? Well back then I wasn't soo pro on cameras plus there wasn't even those screen thingy back then to show u the pics u took. Sooooo.. whatever :P

Tomorrow is gonna be the weekends liao. Meaning NOT going to any particular shopping malls. Right now MOST shopping malls will be flocked with mountains and mountains of people! Since the Chinese New Year is approaching soon. Thus staying home is the BEST option. You get to clean your place, do your own stuff, be a coach potato, etc etc etc, with NO people-crowd around. It's really bad the crowds here in Malaysia. Think of how big the population is here and I need not say more.. Do I?

Therefore I'll do my shopping after Sunday :)

Ohoh!! Greg called me up yesterday! hahahha from brissy~ That fella.. finally got a landline at home liao. Damn mountain-tortoise lor.. Staying in such a lovely apartment but no landline. hahahah No landline = No Broadband. Not even a dialup Internet!!! So he has to go all the way to his college to use the Internet......... very 'ke lian' right? Anyway now that he has his landline liao, he told me his broadband shld be activated by next week. But I'm kinda doubtful about that... Given that Australia has a reputative for their "fantabulous fast" service... Go figure~

For now.. I'm thinking if I shld continue to tidy up my rubbish or study after blogging...

Hmmmmmmmmmmm*

kinda missing that particular someone right now... it's frustrating not knowing that the other person is thinking... it's even more frustrating when you don't know how the other person is feeling towards you.. I'm not having low self-confidence of myself but sometimes I guess appearance really does matter... what A said is true, no doubt about it. who wouldn't want to have someone gorgeous or handsome beside him/her? Especially when right now the society judges one on their appearances most of the time. what happens to having a beautiful heart? does that comes secondary too? I've been with beautiful people before. But their hearts were tarnished. Would u still be with someone so beautiful but with a bad heart? Not me... What if Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt or whoever that rocks ur boat has such beautiful body/features and ironically doesn't give a shit about u/not giving u n ur loved ones respect/so self-centered about ownself? Would u still choose to be with them?

I'm not saying appearances doesn't count. Sure it does. But after my experiences in life, as long as that person is lookable to me, what matters most is what's inside... Like what the old saying goes, Qing Ren Yen Li Cu Xi Shi. That person can look as plain as Bob or Bill but once he has the purest of heart (not too extreme lah!!!must be alert as well too mah), everything goes.

errr... as I was saying wayy before, kinda missing that particular someone right now.. i guess dat someone must be either snoring away or doing the only thing that someone usually likes doing..

don't think that someone will be missing me... i dont know.. -sigh-

xoxox

Thursday, January 19, 2006
@9:36 PM

Bitter Sweet Memories

Other than going out to to buy my lunch in the afternoon, spent the whole day at home. Didn't manage to meet up with Jenny cos it was already too late. Pity that she'll be going back tomorrow.. Else we still can do heaps of things together! There's so much I wanna talk to her about but since my mother was around, so maybe it's not that convenient and all. Don't know la~

Right now the movie "Fly Me To Polaris" is playing on the background. Love that movie. Actually I love alot of movies such as Ever After, Artificial Intelligence. U wouldn't even believe how many gazillion times I've watch Ever After over n over again. Don't even get me started on that! :P

So Evan was msging me on MSN earlier. Suddenly he was asking me if he spelt this particular japanese word correctly. I was like "Huh?! I have no idea??I don't really know Japanese...". That fella thought I was onto Japanese.. -_-" Then the memories came rushing back to me...

I still remember that faithful day when we were being introduced. The whole feeling felt as though it happened yesterday and that I am still in Sydney right now.

Celia told me of this guy who came from Japan and was down in Sydney for 2 weeks holidays. That also he speaks fluenent English with an almost American accent. I was quite surprised. Found out that he has had an exchange for 1 year in America before. Interesting. Didn't really have quite a first impression on him other than he looked quite different as to per normal Japanese boys and that he had a nice sense of dressing :) (then again, I wasn't really into Japanese boys that time actually... So don't really have a good idea on how Japanese boys fashion sense..hehehe)

:: The 1st night - Korean Dinner - the girls, him, Keisuke, me n Celia ::

After dinner with Celia' friends and him, the other girls left and so there was only 4 of us. Me, Celia, him and Keisuke. We hung out together and from that night onwards, I met him everyday. We talked about stuffs and had a really nice time together. I felt so comfortable and easy with him around. I guess there was no communication barriers between us. Quite frankly, it didn't feel like I was even talking to a Japanese boy!

The others was quite shocked and sooo surprised that we were able to get along so well. Even when I went back to the Univeristy lodge with him and he was like always sticking around with me.

Later on did I find out that he wasn't very much liked by everyone else. They said that he was proud and quite arrogant. I was quite surprised myself too. He didn't behave like that infront of me. Infact, he was such a gentleman... Sensitive, gentle, warm and caring. Every night he always made sure I went back safe by walking home with me. Even when it was out of his way or he needed to walk twice the distance. And we ended the night with a hug and a kiss.

I was indeed smitten by him...

Audrey met him too! And she was stunned that I have such cute japanese frens. hahahahahhah what the?!?!?! Seriously after spending so much time with him, I didn't notice if he was cute or handsome or whatsoever. To me, he looks normal. Don't be mistaken! Not becos I've got high standards with guys (which I dont!!!) but I have already looked past his appearance.. and into his heart...

The whole 2 weeks was juz simply so magical and beautiful...

Sadly good things always have to come to an end..

He went back Japan...

Whenever someone mentions anything about Japan, his face will appear on my mind, along with those wonderful times we spent together..

Thanks for everything Kosuke.

May our friendship continues to grow and blossoms eternally.

:: the land of bitter sweet memories ::

:: 4 of us ::

:: good times together ::

:: to Japan, with Love ::

xoxox

@2:22 AM

...A Sudden Random Thought...

I can still remember that night when I accidentally bumped into Weiming at Holland Village. haahhah I was actually quite surprised to see him there. And he too looked abit stunned, with a silly cute smile on his face.lol

So I walked up to him, said hi and chatted abit.

He then introduced to me his girlfriend. We said the usual introduction.

After which, he was like looking at someone behind me and then back at me again, with a confused look on his face.

Quite an interesting expression I would say. hahahahhahahha

So I introduced him to Weiming.

" Oh erm.. This is my friend Philip "

" Oh, Hi! "

" Hi. "

*shakes hand*

Once again, he started to give me that weird expression.

That looking-at-him-and-then-back-to-me-several-times expression with that silly cute smile on his face.

I don't get it..

Was Philip making monkey faces at him or doing some funny expression behind my back? Was that why he was looking at us so awkwardly?

Hahahhahah

Definately an interesting moment

That coincidental meetup was so interesting and it left such an impression on me that I just have to blog it out.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
@10:45 PM

Headache...

Lately i've got so many things on my mind that sooner or later, my brain seriously couldnt take it anymore.. So many things that my head throbs like mad quite often. Sometimes I really feel like I need a shelter, a block of confidant, an other half to help me get thru life... At least just to be there whenever I need someone to listen and hear me out. I guess growing up alone doesn't really help. I'm not totally dependent nor am I totally independent... I'm just a girl who needs someone to protect and care for like everyone else..

Sometimes I really wish life isn't this hard. It just gets harder as years gone by. It gets more complex, more "polluted", more tough and especially more lonely...

A has been bugging me lately about this particular issue. I understand A's kindness and nags but I guess it's not an easy task for me although I myself really would like to achieve it. I know it'll definately change my life for the better and that A said sounds really comforting and encouraging.. A mentioned about me being a nice person and that people should treat me back with the same kindness and whatsoevers. Don't let those people push me around and think I'm a nobody. It's only right to make the equation balance out.

I definately want people to treat me with the same kindness as I do unto them... I don't blame them if they misused my kindness and took advantage of it. I guess I am just too nice sometimes. I take things easily. I am patient with most people. I am just ... chilled.. most times other than when i'm having my PMS! hahahahha

well... I'll try my best A... Hopefully I'll be able to get it over and done with soon.. and perhaps I will see a change.. for the better :)

~

Anyway spent the whole afternoon and evening at MidValley today shopping with my mum, Jenny and her friend.

::interiors of MidValley Shopping Mall ::

:: photo sessions with my darlings *lol* ::

I think we were there from like around 3pm until we left the place at abt 8pm. Best was I only manage to buy 1 top at MNG.... -_-" the thing about me is I'm pretty picky about what I buy so... I don't usually go back home with heaps of bags and stuff unless it's my favourite shop or things like that.. Anyway the top at MNG only costs me RM$79 which I think is not too bad. It's like one of the newer stock so yeah :P

:: cupid top from MNG ::

At least Jenny bought like heaps of stuffs for herself and her boyfriend David. awwwwww~ I miss buying things for my boyfriend... I actually love to shower my other half with presents and nice surprises but usually I am the one who's doing all the givings while the other half was the takers. hahaha oh well.. I like having people happy... Maybe it's one of my faults too. *sigh* watever :)

I was looking ard the shoe shops but none of the shoes caught my eye... I wanna find back the pair of heels I saw at Bugis Americaya but can't seems to see it anywhere... :( Walking around the whole shopping mall was killing my poor feet. hahahha Doesn't help much when at the same time I was getting tired and sianz.. Especially I only manage to buy 1 top...

Then Jenny wanted to go in JUSCO to check out their bags. In the end she got herself a pack of compact powder from Chanel. Think it costs like RM$130 or something.. not very expensive right? Anyway while she was checking out the Chanel counter, I cldn't take it anymore and had to sit down to rest my poor feet. hheheh

:: the Jusco cosmetics department with beautiful people ads ::

:: just taking it easy... for e moment ::

By the end of the day, me and my mum began to feel hungry while Jenny and her friend had late lunch before so they were quite full. So we figured by the time we got out of the city it'll be too late to go anywhere for dinner, thus headed to JUSCO foodcourt and got ourselves some sushi instead.

:: our dinner ::

Drove Jen n her friend back to the hotel and we headed back home.

It was like jam all the way back. Jam jam jam... I think it's all these traffic jams that's giving me this terrible headache lately!! :(

Don't think I'll be seeing Jenny tomorrow.. Need to study for my supplementary papers.. But then again she'll be leaving on friday liao.. hmmmmmm.. will see how lah~

Meanwhile just gotta study as much as I can!! Wish me luck!

xoxox

Tuesday, January 17, 2006
@8:31 PM

Tiring Tuesday *phew!*

And so, I woke up like 4 hours later and left the house at 9am to head to KLIA to pick up Jenny. Before leaving the house and while waiting for my mum, I decided to take some pics out of boredom. hahahahha Even took one pic on our way to the airport. hehehehh *blush* Was in a hurry to leave, didn't have the time to blow my hair so just simply tied it all up infront :P

:: morning jitters. cant hold camera properly *lol* ::

:: seeeeee my eye bags!!!! :( ::

:: much better than before. kekeke ::

:: malaysia's toll system ::

:: what?! i was bored cannnnnn?! ::

:: upon reaching KLIA - the tower and a passing Msia taxi ::

We reached the arrival terminal just in time. I got off the car and went to meet up with her at the entrance of the arrival hall. She still looks the same!!! As pretty as ever *lol* my dear old Jenny~*

Since me and my mum did not have breakkie before we left the house, we stopped over at Maccas at Subang Jaya to recharge ourselves with Maccas breakfast meals and before that, went over to the Shell station infront to pump some petrol.

After feeling all full and hyped up, we drove Jenny to her hotel at Bukit Bintang called Agora Hotel. I was checking it up on the Internet last night and apparently it's a 2 star hotel. But location wise is damn good!! Very centralised. It's like situated near all the shopping malls in KL and not too far from Federal Hotel, which during the earlier years was one of the most famous hotels there.

The car ride down KL was bit the usual traffic and all. One thing I don't like about Malaysia is the traffic. Oh my god. Like for no reason, there'll be traffic on the road!! Especially to Bukit Bintang.. Even when it's not lunch hour, nor the weekends, nor what-so-ever reasons we can think of lor!! Still jam *arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

:: signboard to Kuala Lumpur. Just look at the jam opposite!!! ::

:: jams, jams, n more jams!! ::

:: this huge billboard along the road welcoming korean president visiting Msia ::

:: this block of flats kinda resembles the apartments in HK u see in movies heheh ::

So took this nothing-better-to-do-time to do something productive - take pics with Jenny in the car!!! hahahahha Havent seen her for so long, better take pics to keep :)

:: Jenny n me in e car ::

:: my mummy dearest ::

Once Jen checked in and put away her luggage in her room, we drove down to Times Square as she wanted to buy this skincare products for his sis n herself.

First time I stepped into Times Square and boy! It's HUGE!!!! I heard there's like roller coaster IN the shopping mall itself! How cool is dat?! But sadly, the place seems kinda deserted... Like you dont see many shoppers around lor...

Jenny made this really funny comment which sounded something like "The shopping mall too big and the shoppers too little. So looks as thou nobody around!!" Dunno why I was laughing my head off when she said that,it juz sounded so hillarious to me that time but its really true. The shopping mall too huge already!!!! The shoppers are like so dispersed... Well at least it'll cater for those big shopping sales season when million billions and gazillions of shoppers will huddle over here..

We walked around the shop for awhile after Jen got her stuffs and I saw this...

The theme park IN the shopping mall!!!! With the roller coaster and everything lor~ Soooo interesting right?? *gusp*

Anyway we didn't stay long. Jen's friend was already waiting for her at the hotel so we paid the ticket, found the car and headed out. Unfortunately we took the wrong exit and we got ourselves into a looonngggggg journey back to Jen's hotel. Dropped her off and then me and my mum went to grab ourselves some late light lunch.

By the time we got back, I was sooo darn tired!!! Manage to grab abit of sleep earlier on. Still slightly wary but much better than before :)

Tomorrow gonna wake up early again.. Jen and her fren plans to go to the Temple to pray so i'm thinking of going there with them. Hopefully her fren knows the way to the Temple from the hotel.. Cos I havent been there before.

xoxox

@2:33 AM

Before i head to bed...

I finally submitted the 2 emails to my 2 subject coordinators. One to thank the 1st coordinator for granting me approval and asking for more details regards to the sup format n etc. The other to beg 2nd coordinator to approve the still-pending sup exam... Pls pray for me everyone out there.. I really want to graduate in time with everyone :(

Today did not do much, sadly... Wanted to tidy and rearrange my room but was too slack to do it. Althou I did manage to rearrange one part of it. Hehhehehh*

Gonna wake up in few hours time and drive down to KLIA to pick up my dear old fren Jenny from the airport. She's coming down from Perkanbaru Indonesia for holidays in Kuala Lumper. Haven't seen her for years!!! Ever since I left KL for Sydney. Oh wait... I think she came down to Singapore during 2000 for christmas... hehehehhe Still~ It has been 5 years!!! I am not surprised if she still looks as gorgeous as ever!

*Sigh*

Still pondering about the 2nd coordinator's decision... Really hope that he'll let me take the sup paper.. He did reply me before about it but there was some hesitation in it as to his approval and the reason to his disapproval.. Both makes sense but come on, obviously the approval is way better!

Pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls let him say yes!!!!!!!

Ohoh!! I've finally scanned some of my neo-prints this afternoon. But I think the quality kinda sucky... Either I haven't been using that scanner for quite sometime or the scanner is dying on me.. Or maybe its the old PC that I connected the scanner to.. Either way, the quality of these scanned neoprints isn't that great.. U guys can be the judge..

:: Took this in Sydney with Devi ::

:: in Sydney wif Devi n e korean guys - Hung n Nick. Patheticly small wif bad pixel quality!! ::

:: 2nd latest neoprint i took with Lynn n Budi ::

:: e latest neoprint wif Lynn ::

:: My favourite piece!! ::

I'm feeling kinda floaty now... Think i better head to bed.. *

xoxox

Monday, January 16, 2006
@8:05 PM

A girl with an expressionless face

What does she see in the mirror infront of her? Just a girl with an expressionless face. Almost like a shell without a soul.

What does she feel inside of herself? Emptiness. Insecurity. Hollow. Lost.

She feels like she is the shadow of her parents. Something emotionless and expressionless. Not someone. She grew up with her dad breathing down her neck and her mum continuous manipulations throughout her life. To her mother, everyone is bad. Nobody's trustworthy. She doesn't even trust her own child for god's sake. What's there more to say?

Everyday was pointless and meaningless for her. Questions being bombarded to her, only to be decided by her parents in the end. Her opinions was worthless.

Her whole life was being pathed by her parents. Which schools to enter, which studies to be enrolled and which faculty to take. She became indecisive and lost in her parents' so-called "protected" world.

Friends was being selected and choosen by her parents. The friends she gotten to know was considered as bad people and she was even brainwashed by her mother to think that her best friend was a bad influence on her. Her best friend was the only person whom she gotten to trust and confide in after so many years being "jailed" by her parents. But her mother easily manipulated her daughter to get rid of that best friend...

Years past and she began to experience life differently. As she managed to hang out with people whom her parents objected, the more she grew to understand and appreciate the outside life and adventures. She did not take up the bad habits her friends had. She has self-control and knew the whats and what nots. Still her parents was there to pull her back into their shadowed world everytime she thought she saw the light...

Sunday, January 15, 2006
@11:05 PM

Here I Am Again.. Kuala Lumpur

*sigh* So I've once again reached Kuala Lumpur.. The trip was especially mentally draining on me this time as I think I'm suffering from PMS and also lack of sleep. Plus this morning I woke up with my right eye all sore and red! I was shocked to experience such weird soreness and pain all of a sudden. Lynn said maybe I had pressed on my right eye while I was asleep..... But I never experience such thing before leh! Maybe it was the movie BLOOD AND BONES.. see dirty things liao then eyes red red.. wahahahhaa~* Abit lame but thats wat usually the elders said. :P

Thank god the swellness subsided during noon. Actually it became better after I start to rub my left eye *LOL* like what the???

Did last minute packing this morning and managed to get everything packed and ready to go by 4:15pm. Reached Copthorne Hotel at ard 4:30pm. Felt sooo tired and sick in the stomach... Not much appetite. Boarded Nice++ at ard 5pm.. Philip was telling me bout this other coach service called First Class that his mum tried the other time and costed her like S$100+ 2 way. It's a double-deck coach and there's even a lounge downstairs for the passengers to chill. How cool??? I saw a First Class coach on my way back Spore from KL the last time and the coach has like leather seats with LCD monitor screen each!! Sooo first class cannnn?

:: Nice++ Coach ::

And so we reached KL at around 9:30pm. My dad was still at his clinic when we got to the coach stop.... Ended up only me and my mum the only passengers left waiting to be picked up. To not waste any time doing nothing while waiting for my dad, I took some random pics!!! Hahahha

:: random pics around coach stop ::

Saturday night was fun fun fun! I met up with Lynn in the afternoon after her work. We went to Ding Tai Fong for late lunch. Had the usual xiao long baos and la mians. Hmmmm I think I still prefer Crystal Jade's xiao long bao.. I used to like Ding Tai Fong ones but after trying out Crystal Jade's few times these days and having the xiao long baos at DTF, I think Crystal Jade is better. heheheh

After dinner we shopped around abit and Lynn finally gotten her Levis jeans at Shaw which she wanted so much while I got my Lancome foundation at CK Tang as Shaw's branch ran out of stock for my color... My mum broke my Lancome foundation bottle :( So gotta buy a new one again... *sigh* It's a glass bottle so like very fragile. Then Lynn wanted to catch a movie at GV as she has free tickets for movie!! We wanted to watch King Kong at PS but it was screening at 8:30pm.. TOo late for me as I was planning on going back home for dinner. In the end I decided to just stay on.

Philip joined us in the evening for dinner at MOS burger in PS and Lynn saw the darnest thing! She claimed that there was 2 gay guys inside MOS burger and they were like looking at Philip the moment we stepped in! hahahahha and she didnt even tell me about it!!! *sigh* such juicy news and she kept it to herself only to share with us later....

Anyway, wanted to watch movie at PS but decided to head down to Cineleisure instead. Got the midnight show BLOOD N BONES so with the extra time, we went for drinks at ROCKY MASTER and few games of Arcade upstairs.

:: Rocky Master ::

:: a "siao zhar bor" ::

:: Mr Charming *OooOooo* ::

:: passing our time away by taking heaps of pics!!! ::

OhOh!! Before I forget, I TRASHED Philip at Daytona 2 lor!!! HAhahahahahHAha

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BLOOD N BONES is nice!! But Lynn didn't really enjoyed it. Philip thought it was a horror movie. hahahahahha I read the synopsis and it sounded like those arty farty show. Nice lor! I like watching such shows sometimes. It just portrays to you the different aspects of life and things like that.

When I was back in Sydney, Jina before was working for this Korean company (she's a korean too) and she got us all free tickets to the Korean Film Festival!! It was sooo nice. We watched a total of 4 different movies in 4 days and it never fail to make me tear inside the cinema...The last movie was the worst!! I couldn't control my tears anymore and I just had to cry....... Korean movie plots are all very touching.. Good choice for people who wana have a good cry to watch korean movies.

Tomorrow monday liao.. Daddy gonna go to Nilai's branch to see his patients. Probably I wouldn't be tagging along as he told me to stay home and study for my sup paper... I prefer to stay home too. Had too much of long hours on the road journey and it kinda makes me sick.

Before I end, here is the Cathay Cineplexes Pte Ltd Management wishes everyone a Happy & Prosperous Lunar New Year!!! Hahhahahahah Took this before the movie started :P

xoxox