Dreams...

Dreams. How many of us have had dreams? Hundreds. Thousands. Millions. Billions. Gazillions. I have alot of my own. Be it day-dreams, dreams at night while asleep, etc. Most of the time my dreams are quite hard to come true. Most of the time, I know its impossible for it to happen. One has to be real at times. It's good to live in dreams but gotta head back to Earth as well...

Just finished my 2nd last paper earlier. I think I screwed it up - as usual. Have to contact my subject co-ordinators and see if they'll be free to meet up with me before I go back. Need to have a talk with them. Hopefully everything goes well.

Last paper is tomorrow. 6pm to 9:10pm. Part of me can't wait to get my revision started but part of me feels exhausted. I really want to pass this subject. Can't screw everything up. Like it's not bad enough already *blush* Zensho called me up in the afternoon asking for Port Stephen's accomodation details and also tomorrow night's program.

I'm so tired....

Sometimes I wish to be someone else. Someone better - prettier, richer, cleverer, slimmer. My goal when I'm back in Singapore is to lose weight. This time round it's for real. Gonna do it with my couz. Should be much easier and better as compared to trying to lose weight in Sydney. With me in the kitchen and nobody to cook for me, I'll whip up anything edible, if not just fast food and eat out with me mates =)

I'm going to miss it here... As in the good times with my friends and all. It's gonna be different back in Spore I feel. Firstly it's the weather, for sure. hahahahhhah oh well... I don't know what I'm feeling now really. The thought of having to leave one place - again. Have been moving here and there ever since Sec school. Sometimes I really wonder where do I belong? I'm having some kinda emotional rush right now. PMS maybe. And lack of sleep + stress. I wanna hug someone... I wanna see him again. He's like so near yet so far. Just a barely 1 hr plus apart. I could have easily get into the plane just to be near him once more. Before I leave. -sigh-

Wanted to put up a post lately but due to the time constraint, thought I better not and use the time to study instead. In the end, didn't really get anything done.

I feel so tired...

I feel like I've tried so hard but did so little. What's wrong with me? I feel it takes me a longer time to absorb my study materials as compared to the me 3 years ago. Am I becoming more stupid or am I just lazy? Can't be lazy... I tried so hard... But I just can't help but wander away... I feel so helpless.......... No matter how hard I tried, nothing works. Be it study, life, love...

Would it be easier if I just end everything?

Now isn't that a nice thought? -shatters-



Sometimes in my mind, when I start to wander into my own world, I dream about slow dancing with someone along with a romantic music on the background.