To Love Or Be Loved

sometimes i really dont know what to do. sometimes i dont think about it at all. try to keep myself busy or at least try not to think so much. but sometimes i just really do misses him alot alot. it doesnt help much when i tell him that everytime and i dont know if he thinks i'm just saying it or i mean it. sometimes i really wish i can hop onto the next plane, just to see him and be with him. why can't things have to be so complicated everytime? why cant i just lead a simple normal life????? if only i can let him feel how much he means to me...

went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory earlier with celia. it wasnt so bad but celia didnt really enjoyed it. Johnny Depp aka Willy Wonka scares her. hahah apparently she hasnt read through the storybook yet so yeah.. in my point of view, i think its really nice! much better than the first version shown in Australia - Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. mainly becos theres the newer technology special effects now and Johnny Depp! hahhah plus Charlie really looks sweet n decent in this movie, along with his whole family members. althou they stay in a really dodgy house, the whole atmosphere and love u are able to feel among the family members really makes u feel cosy and warm inside. one thing scares me bout the movie is that indian fella...... seriously.. hes damn weird.. and seeing the real him on telly on Entertainment Tonight reaallyy scares me even more. hahahhah. unbeliveable..

well.. this week i have like 2 mid-terms to get ready along with a huge assignment which is like due on the 19th sept. havent started a single thing yet!!! baddddd... found a group for Corporate Finance subject. plan to start our assignment for Issues in Corporate Finance after the midterm break. see how it goes.. Lyson was talking about doing a road trip to Melbourne during the term break and i was so excited as Billy will be joining us too and i even included celia in!! i was even imagining how much fun dat will be until celia told me today that she'll be going back to HK before the term break.. like for good. how sad!!!! sighhhh... seriously, good things doesnt last long. maybe its juz my life or something.. now i dont know whats going on. waiting for celia to confirm with me the exact date she'll be going back and see from there. just hoping that she'll leave after her bday.

as for now, gotta hit my books and study for Corporate Finance midterm this thursday!! havent touch a single thing yet.. gotta mug mug mug!!!