A Wedding ; An Anniversary

October. The month my dear cousin Jasmine is going to walk down the aisle and enter into another stage of life. Dressed in the most stunning beautiful white dress, the most beautiful lady she will be that day. Relatives and loved ones giving their blessing, little children carrying bouquets of lovely white flowers. Hand in hand is her handsome man, the one and only who is going to spend the rest of her life with. Through thick and thin, riches and poor. Everyone rejoice for this wonderful moment, once in a lifetime. Parents awaiting for this day, bride and groom the centre of attraction. Love is in the air. Beautiful is the day. Simply unforgettable.

October. The month my favourite Aunt Lay Hong passed. So surreal it was, as though it just happened yesterday. The pain, the grief and the tears. I still thinks of her every now and then, especially during the nights when I simply laid there. Tears flows slowly down my cheeks, flashbacks of memories filled my head. Her laughter, her smile, her beautiful personality and warmth just tears my heart. It has been almost a year now. Things still remains the same but she is no longer there. I feel as though she is still around me but I can't see her. Memories of her, forever in my heart. In that special place where only loved ones stay. I hope that she knew how much I loves her. How special she was and still is to me. No one can replace her in any other way. She is my one and only uniquely special favourite Aunt. Pain fills our hearts. Sorrow overtakes our emotions. She, who has left us, but stays in our hearts forever.

A month of emotional confusion. A month of self contridiction.

I Love You Aunt Lay Hong. I Miss You So Much................. So Much That It Hurts So Bad.