every beat of my heart

Sunday, March 06, 2005
@1:50 PM

Mardi Gras ; Hang-Over?

met up with audrey, christian, dave, hanyu, jescho n peggy at Oxford yesterday evening n we all waited for the Mardi Gras parade from 4pm till it finally started at around 7ish. it wasnt so bad this year. slightly better than last year or perhaps it was the crowd i'm with that makes a difference? :) felt good to meet up with u guys after so long

the parade ended at 930pm n headed to the korean restaurant along george street for our dinner. it was sooo packed but managed to get a table pretty fast. after which we walked down to Posh Bar to haf a after-dinner drink. man, i ordered a vodka lime n i swear, it was soo strong that i woke up today with a heavy head on my shoulder which weighed like a ton, and still am right now!! argh... shld have told them to juz give me 1/2 nip of vodka and the rest lime juice. hahahahaha

puffy is playin by himself right now. juz finished e noodles i cooked earlier on n i'm still feeling stoned n dazed. accompanied karen to get a new light bulb for the toilet while i got some groceries from paddys n thai kee. sigh... i hate this feeling man. "i so need some love" quoted by francisco. hahahaha. everyone's out now. chrissy gone out with johnson n karen went out with her SDS mates. i think i'll start looking for jobs after next week, once i settle my enrolment n get everything confirmed.

the weather is so cold today. went out with my quarter sleeve tee & jeans n its chillingly cold. think karen is gonna be freezing later today with the dress n sweater she wore out with. juz gotta love sydney's weather right now. autumn - spring. no summer pls. hehehhh damn!! i juz remember that i haf to read thru my law textbook later. well least theres something for me to do for the time being. desmond called this morning but was still slping so din bother picking up the phone. smsed him when i woke up, askin him when hes free to pass me back my stuffs n also the AUD$100 he owed me. till now, no reply from him. tsk tsk tsk.

i start to realise some stuffs as one gets older. guys are getting weird-er and well...sometimes things can be so much simplier, if u want it to. it has got me thinking..... is it juz me or do guys nowadays tend to cheat outside so frequently now that makes you think, is there really a thing known as staying faithful to each other, till death do us apart? i begin to see that attached guys still sleeps around and going after other girls. what is going on lately? has Cupid been slacking too or did the whole society just doesnt care so much anymore? whats the whole point of being attached with someone if one still remains unfaithful to the other? whats the significant of being in a relationship? is it for the sake of having a name or the convenience of knowing someone will definately be there for you if you cant find others?

Also, sometimes i guess its not totally good to be pretty n beautiful. although u'll have alot of choices to choose from, but then there is the thought of is he being nice to me for who i am or what i am? i see the dilema my frens are in right now and sometimes althou i envy them, still theres a part of me thinking i'm lucky not to be in their shoes. sure i dont have their figure or not as attractive as they are, there are still guys liking me for who i am. it takes time for them to realise the real me of cos but i guess that is how good bonds are being made. sometimes part of me do wish to be like them. to not feel lonely when u cant seems to find anyone or feels like nobodys listening and shit. being them still have disadvantages of another kind. shld i change to be like one of them? will i be happier or will i be even more emotionally hurt?

+ to be or not to be +

+ thanks for making my day brighter .tianli. +

+ its the little things in life which makes it so worthwhile +