Once again i find it hard for me to get to sleep... Is it the many dreams i have every night? Or the thought of my life which ever so flashes back in time? I do not know. Nobody's online right now, at this time of the night, or should i say morning. Its going to be 5am soon. Yet as i laid on my bed, nothing seems to be happening.
Whats wrong with me?
I wish I knew... Nothing seems to be going my way recently. As much as i tried to shake off that feeling, it still clings onto me like some kinda stubborn bacteria ofsorts. Why cant life be smooth sailing as before? Back when the time things seemed to be so much clearer, so much more innocence and happiness.
I guess this world is practical. Alls fair in love & war. One's failure is another one's victory. But the one who failed has learn to stand up stronger than before.
Stronger yes... But for how long? How long can one withstands the countless blows of failures, disappointments, heartaches and deceives? Stronger one may be. But the stronger one appears, the weaker one stands. Like someone has told me before, he was born n raised pure n nice but was engineered a jerk by society. How true is that. How long can one's pure and innocence heart not turn black by the way this society stands. Since when money is the root to all evil, the power to all mighty.
A good friend once said to me,
"You have a great personality, great heart and it would take a smart person to appreciate that"
I was truely touched by what he said. Someone who has known me for 10 years has written this for me, to be stronger and to believe in myself. 10 years... and still counting.
What have I become? All these 22 plus yrs of my life. Am I starting to become one of them? Impossible... right. Spurting out rubbish already as I type... Late nights make people goes crankkiee.
And i'm still waiting... For that one true star of my life.
Cupid - According to Webster's dictionary ... Rom. Myth.The god oflove --n.{c-} a representation of Cupid as a winged boy with bow and arrow.
The GIRL.
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Her LOVES.
My Darlings & Loved ones
Travel & Living
Shopping
Romance & Excitement
Wonderful Surprises
Laughters
Chilling sessions
Her WISHES.
Graduate
My first offical paycheck Driving License
A Special Someone
iPod
Puppy(ies)
Lose 15kg..for now
Downpayment
My First Car *personal finance* New Canon Ixus New Laptop
Being Happy
A Gucci Bag
Language School
Staying Positive
